Smino - 90 Proof [Een Bootleg] (Patreon)

The start of this verse was drafted for "See Me" on "Dewey Decimals" but I expanded on it over this instrumental cause I love this verse even though it's sad. It just fits this beat perfectly too. 

Lyrics:

[Serenity]

Love surrounds me I'll never ignore it

And the magic's still around just gotta deep dive for it

I've been going through the motions for like 3 now

I'm adjusted no discussions it's finit now

[Een]

okay

I just want my credit and I want a full receipt

I know I don't belong cause all I ever do is leave

And what adds insult to my injuries is that I'm fighting to keep up a happy neurochemistry

"Weathering With You" is prolly the best bet for me

But I struggle to let go of what I know that things could be

Every while I seem to need a moment just to grieve

and I pick myself up so much that I know 'bout every piece

And where to put them to appear complete (uh huh)

Cause if my smile ain't wide enough the guards will target me

Born with 2 strikes, I'm tryna avoid 3

Dancing on egg shells I'm learning to litefeet (Eek) (no music!)

Lock-in a comical kintsugi

I do so much reframing I'm scared I messed the image up

Blind spots prolly my undoing

Always feel like I'm saying too much soon as I open up

Love surrounds me I'll never ignore it

And the magic's still around just gotta deep dive for it

I've been going through the motions for like 3 now

I'm adjusted no discussions it's finit now

[outtro chorus from original song]