BLOG: Therapy, Luna, and When The Wife Is Away... (Patreon)

Hello everyone,

I hope you are all doing well :)

I have a couple of things to say before getting into the main point of this post. Firstly, I have had a couple of therapy appointments now. I told them I'm into age play without being too specific and clearly did a good enough job explaining it because she didn't have to call me back to make sure I wasn't a risk to children like my previous therapist did!

There isn't much more to say about it really. She now understands how much ABDL means to me but since it isn't a major cause of my problems I doubt we'll talk much about it in future. Much to my shock she didn't react to the news by immediately starting to baby me and changing my nappy. Turns out the "documentaries" I've seen and read (and wrote) aren't as accurate as I'd hoped!

Secondly, there was some sad news of the passing of one of our own. Lady Luna (@PaddedLuna on Twitter) had been sick for a looooong time. I don't know all the details but she had cancer, very advanced cancer that was essentially incurable but which she had been fighting for far longer than anyone expected possible. Unfortunately a few days ago Luna passed away.

I never knew Luna, I never even spoke to her, but her Twitter was an inspiration. This was a person who was terribly sick for a large proportion of her life, facing incredible odds, in and out of hospital... but she remained so positive, honest and happy that I couldn't help but be inspired. I have no doubt she was scared, she said as much at times, but she was so brave that despite the odds you couldn't help but root for her. I felt like if anyone could beat the unbeatable it would be her.

Like I said, I never knew Luna beyond her Twitter page. I don't claim to be a friend or acquaintance, I expect she had no idea who I am. Which makes me feel kind of strange. It feels almost like I'm intruding on other people's grief. That I don't have the right to feel emotional about her passing.

If I could say one thing to Luna I would just like to tell her about the effect she had on me, a stranger. I can only hope that when I'm facing insurmountable adversity that I can do so with as much bravery and positivity as Luna.

My heart dropped when I saw the news that she was gone but I'm glad she doesn't have to fight anymore. I'm agnostic, I don't know if there is anything after this life, but if there is a heaven or anything else I hope Luna is happy and healthy there. That one day she will be able to greet old friends and family, and maybe I can introduce myself.

RIP Luna.

So, I know that was all a bit heavy and there's going to be a tonal whiplash but there isn't much I can do about that so I'm just going to plough straight into it!

Eight days ago my wife went away to house/pet sit for her parents. That meant I was home alone. My flat would be transformed into a den of debauchery!

Well, I would indulge in certain aspects of my fetish to a level my wife likely wouldn't be comfortable with. Alice has always been fine with whatever I choose to do in diapers, she is ABDL herself after all, but there is a certain restraint I have when she is here. My wife says she doesn't mind me messing, even if she's in the room, but I don't want to push things so far that she gets upset. Alone in the flat meant I didn't need to worry about anyone else.

So... it was a poopy week! I was in nappies for most of the time and didn't use the toilet at all. It was great fun!

I don't know if I've mentioned it before but I can have a dom side but I also have a big sub side as well. I'm in a private ABDL server and they like seeing me embarrass myself for some strange reason. There were more pictures and videos taken but I don't want to frighten Patreon too much so I just uploaded a few that showed a little of what I was getting up to last week!

I tried something new as well. I tried pooping a pair of regular underwear rather than a nappy. It was... odd. I didn't hate it but it just didn't feel completely right.

The bear in the photos, by the way, is named Otis. When I'm being submissive my girlfriend refers to him as my boyfriend and likes to see me humping him which is super duper embarrassing! If this website had emotes I'd put about a dozen blushing ones right here.

Maybe I had a little too much fun though... I had to stop my 24/7 fun times about halfway through the week as I started to develop a rash. I NEVER get diaper rashes but I was worried this might be one. Turns out it cleared up very quickly wand without treatment so it was likely just caused by rubbing or something. Still, after 10 messy nappies and who knows how many soaked ones it was starting to drain my supplies!

I love my wife very much but I think we both like having some alone time occassionally. Whether it is me going for an overnight stay somewhere to see some music or an event, or Alice going off for a week's getaway, I think we both like some time apart. Maybe some see that as a weakness in the relationship, personally I see it as a strength. We love our time together, we practically never argue and are really open with each other. We trust each other in our poly relationships. I think we both know there are things that we hold back out of respect for the other person, having a little time apart on occasion allows us to enjoy those parts of us and also appreciate our time together much more.

That's pretty much all I've got to say. It was a nice week but by the final few days I was more than ready for Alice to come home. She's back now and normality has resumed... not that "normal" has much to do with our lives and relationship!