Rebuilding Megan The Blog of Megan Waters (Patreon)

September 12th

The sky is blood red.

These wild fires that have been burning over the course of the summer have really gotten bad. The sky is literally blood red and the air is so bad Im being told to stay indoors.

Its insane and scary whats happening  right now. It looks like Mars out there, looking out my window. I really have to pity the poor door dashers who have to go out in this hell hole. I also wonder how the rioters down town can even manage to protest.

Its been pretty sad and depressing and I've been dealing with it the only way I know how at this point which is eating.

My relationship with food is truly fucked. Back during the project I gave in and became a glutton, just eating to fill my body and pack on the cellulite. I blew up into this swollen bloated woman I am now and now I cant stop eating. I'm ALWAYS hungry, I probably have diabetes or something. I haven't seen a doctor all this time.

My second date happened here and he made me a cake for these trying times. Its nice having a man that knows how to bake a cake.

But still, when I look outside at that hellscape I cant help but over eat on my comfort food, which is fried chicken. The KFC buckets have been piling up.

It sucks, it all sucks. My goal of repairing the damage I did to my body and my health is fucked and Im even more fucked because I've only gotten more morbidly obese during a time where theres a plague that targets fat pigs like me.

I hear there's supposed to be a vaccine maybe by the end of the year.

I sure hope so, because I need to lose some fucking weight.

#depressed #wildfires #wearamask #covidsucks