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Life is really doin' some stuff lately... I don't know if my chakras are out of wack, Mercury is in retrograde or some shit oh, maybe it's to do with humans experiencing our shortest day on record. Did you hear about that? Whatever the fuck it is, it's really throwin' me off. 

I've just been moving through autopilot these past few weeks. Ticking off my daily tasks, I've even been waking up at 6.30 am and practicing breathwork! Like, physically I look like I'm doing great but emotionally, no one is home.

My creativity, my drive, and my passion feel numb. I can see it, it's right in front of me but I just don't have the energy to reach out and take hold, to take what's mine. To relight that spark inside of me. So instead I continue to move through each day, ticking off one task at a time. 

We're about to move house again. It's exhausting, packing my bags only to unpack them again. But I'm also learning how little we need to live, how little possessions we actually require. Stuff. It's all just pointless stuff. 

We will soon be moving into a hostel, but only for a few days. It's been 3 months since we said goodbye to our home address and have been living this nomadic life. It's mostly to save money before we go traveling but also, I'm an 'experience' kind of person.  An 'I wonder what it would be like to be a homeless' kinda person. And to answer my own question, it's stressful... but exciting. And it was a decision I decided to make.

As I write this, I'm surrounded by dirty laundry ready to be washed, folded clothes scattered across the table, and dirty dishes fucking everywhere. I need to clean this house before the owners come home in 2 days. 

In the next few days I'll be sending out my monthly email to all my Patrons and you can expect word vomit, random updates, photos, and news on an exciting podcast I'll be recording this month.

I'll try to be more active this week but I can't guarantee anything. I just need to be sad for a little while but nothing lasts forever right?

Talk soon,

Jessie

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Eric Pidgeon

Life is full of surprises- and it moves pretty fast! There will be challenges along the way that will make you feel all kinds of emotions- excitement, nerves, anger, frustration, stress, exhaustion etc. Take it one day at a time, and enjoy the ride!

Jessie Beale

Well said! And you're totally right. I need to remind myself to stop for a moment and just be thankful for the little things along the way 🌿