july update! (Patreon)

hello everyone! happy, uh, awful summer heat? (seriously, it's too hot, i'm dying.)

i hope you're all well! i wanted to do a quick update just to make sure everyone knows what's going on!

my personal life has been really, really chaotic the last couple months. there's been medical emergencies, a lot of stress, and a lot of work to keep up with for me. additionally,  a lot of content creation has been going on; not just videos, but i'm streaming 3-5+ times a week, and working on lots of secret stuff surrounding that!

i haven't abandoned making videos; but making videos is taxing, takes hundreds of hours, and yields little in return, to put it frankly! i want to continue making them, but at a pace that doesn't break me. it's much easier and much less stressful to say, stream ASMR! (if you didn't know already, i stream ASMR quite often on twitch.tv/fallenshadowasmr, and there's quite a big backlog of ASMR content! whist making videos is a struggle, i want to keep providing ASMR content, and i'm hoping this is a compromise whilst my video production is slow!)

but i'm still burnt out from the most recent video, and i'm still reeling a little. i'm working on the next video, slowly. i don't want to explode. there's a lot of people relying on me irl right now, and i can't allow myself to break down.

so videos will be here, as always! i'm working on them as fast as i can! i hope that you can understand, and maybe join me for some streams sometime! i don't just do ASMR on twitch, but art and games too! we have so much fun, and i try to stream at a variety of different times to appeal to as many timezones as possible!! it's my birthday on july 23rd, so if you felt like coming to my birthday party that would be lovely! :D

on one final note, the patron letters for this month have actually been completed for a while now, a couple of weeks, but i haven't left the house so i haven't been able to post them :< i'm working up to it, but it's not easy for me to go outside. it's something i still find really, really difficult, even just going to the local shop to post the letters (that's the only reason i go outside; i leave the house once a month to do this, and nothing else ;---;)

i'll post them soon! i'm working up to it! i will do it!

thank you as always for being kind, supportive, understanding and patient. i truly love all of you from the bottom of my heart. thank you for letting me create content for you, for caring about the person behind the screen, for liking the videos and the streams and sending your kind words my way. i might not always be able to reply, but i read every message and i read most comments. thank you; i don't deserve you, truly.

until next time, i'm here, i'm alive, i'm working so incredibly hard every single day. 

thank you!