taking a break (Patreon)
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hey guys, i'm sorry i have to do this - but i really can't produce video content right now.
i won't bore you with the extensive details - but the last month or so has been one of the hardest of my life. it's nothing to do with covid-19, don't worry - i've just kind of reached my limit and i really can't do anything right now. i pretty much just sleep all day, i can't think straight when i'm awake and i'm just not strong enough to get out of bed for long enough to record a video. i've tried several times the last couple weeks to make SOMETHING but i'm so flat and terrible and breathless and just exhausted sounding when i record and i've just had to give up for now. it's probably impossible for me to produce a good video, no matter how hard i try or how many times i go at it - so i'm just going to stop trying until i feel ready to go again.
i really hate to do this. i want to make videos, i have ideas, but i just physically can't right now. i feel especially awful for those of you who could really use new videos from me given the current circumstances in the world, but i honestly feel that even if i forced myself to produce something and worked so hard to make it okay it just wouldn't be to standard, and i don't want to make something that bad. i totally understand that people will unpledge because of this and i really respect that, thank you for all of your support until now. i won't hold anything against you whatsoever.
i don't know how long it will be until my next upload, honestly - i hope it won't be too long, a month at most! hell, i might start feeling better and get something ready for you guys within a week or two, i just can't say. i just wanted to inform all of you so you don't just think i've disappeared because i'm here, i'm trying my best and as soon as humanely possible i will have more videos up for you.
thank you so much, as always. hopefully i'll be seeing you really soon.
(p.s patron letters for this month will still be sent out, don't worry.)