Anesthesia (Patreon)

This is a very personal art. I didn’t want to post it anywhere, but I’ll make an exception for Patreon.

When I was in the operating room, I was so scared, doctors tried to calm me down and my hands shaked violently. Also I heard a song by Sia “Unstoppable”, that was someone’s ringtone, it was one of my favorite songs, I wanted to cry, such a strange reaction, I thought “wow, it’s sounding in the right moment, no one forced me to do it, I came here myself and now I can’t stop the process, well, I’ll be stronger at least after all” - now it strongly associates with that event. I fixed it to rethink and to see it again in a different way. Because nothing terrible happened in fact. Seriously, that was a simple surgery and I had no problems with it, I feel great. Such a coward cat, hehe)