Mental state progress (Patreon)

Hi everyone ! It's been... Yikes, 3 months since I informed you of my struggles. I never really stopped working since then, but let's be honest, it's been dreadful and full of delays.

That set aside, I have made a lot of progress on my self-care since then.  Since June I'm seeing a therapist, I went through some tests with a neurotherapist and I found a specialist experienced with ADHD in adults. 

Yesterday, I got my first appointment with him. For those who followed on discord, it's been a struggle to face all the medical field's ignorance and lack of deontology on the matter. It's clear Belgium isn't very advanced in terms of research on the matter... Which had me fall in despair, starting to understand I'd never find help here. I was ready to give up. 

But this appointment really saved me! I went there fully prepared, ready to fight, like I was going to defend my case in court on my own. But instead, he asked a few questions, took a look at my tests and history, went like "Oh yeah, you have ADD for sure.". Which got me a bit like preparing for a war, pumped of adrenaline and then ... nothing. Just peace. I was pretty confused. 

More importantly, he instantly recognised the suffering I had to go through in life from receiving no support whatsoever for this condition.  He asked if it was okay to first tackle my depression and do some psycho-education for the next 2 to 3 months because he wanted it out of the equation before trying a treatment for ADHD alone. Honestly, I didn't expect to be believed, let alone on my depression. I never felt like I was broken enough despite all the signs. So I'm on antidepressants for the next 97 days.

I don't know how things will go from now on, but I finally feel like I'm making progress.

Thank you for your support,

Ghu'