So, (Patreon)

Hi everyone.

Since we're so very parasocial, I wanted to give you some life updates that may or may not influence interaction here on Patreon or on the YouTube channel.

My partner and I are moving to a new house. Our neighborhood has become in many ways unlivable, and we found a place out more in the country. 

I'm currently packing. It's a lot. It will take up all my free time for the next month or so.

The move itself will be incredibly disruptive to almost everything. I may have to work from a laptop for some of our lessons if you're doing that with me.

I'm honestly pretty terrified of the move, as while it's necessary, it's also putting me and Brian in a more precarious position financially and also from the perspective of really, really depending on our work to continue as it is. 

For him, that means Elon Musk not buying Twitter and destroying the company and making everyone go into an office. For me, that means maintaining this weird fucking "job" I have teaching lessons and having Patrons. 

I spend every day terrified I'm going to fuck this up, that lessons will dry up, that I'll become irrelevant from a perspective on music tech and composition and this grand experiment will come crashing down and, late into my years, I'll be back commuting an hour each way to a job that wants me dead.

I'm telling you this because I just need to get it out. I know you're here because you have chosen to support me, and I really appreciate that. It's literally what's making every day of my life possible.

Happening parallel to this is my father going through what some might call a "come to Jesus" moment with a lifestyle he's been living for decades. He's been in the hospital for the last week with complications from years of alcoholism, poor diet, and diabetes. I've watched this happen with no power to stop it, and believe me, I've tried.

He's moving to transitional housing next week to help him with staying on task, stay healthy, and get his strength back. After that, we have to find some monitored living solution that doesn't rob him of his dignity but keeps him safe and healthy.

This, happening with the move, is absolutely bananas from a stress perspective. 

I tell you all this because I may not be as up to speed on Patreon, responding to comments, etc.

Please, if you need to reach out to me regarding lessons or other Patreon questions, do not use Patreon messaging. It's very unreliable that I see notifications from Patreon messaging. Email me at redmeansrecording@gmail.com

I know that everyone is feeling the world in a way they probably never expected right now. We talk a lot in Discord about mental health and try to support each other. If you want a good community of people online that will listen, please join us.

Other than that, take care of yourself. Hold on when you get love, and let go when you give it.