things change (Patreon)

hi everyone,

if you've been in my discord lately you've seen that things have been a little weird for me. i'm struggling a lot with what it means to be a content creator, and getting comments from viewers that i just can't shake. a lot of these have to do with one of two things: 

1) go back to making op-1 videos
2) you're a fake person masquerading as a music technology influencer

in this video, which goes live next week, i address both of these things, but i'm going to give you all a little text to go with it:

there will never be another op-1 video on my channel. not like the old ones. this is super weird because when i look at how this patreon's tiers are structured, i see how much it all revolves around that old format. i released the song to one tier level and the op-1 stems and presets to the one above that. 

without that i'm not really sure how to address the patreon in the same way. i'm definitely trying to keep up with providing stuff here, and overall the musical output has increased. stems and presets, not so much.

believe me, i feel the tension regarding what i used to be and what i am now. i don't spend a lot of time thinking about the past, i'm not nostalgic. but i do think about how "easy" that period was in terms of what people expected of me.

my ability to be doing this full time relies fully on support from ya'll that was garnered by doing a type of video i'll likely never do again, and that's weird to me.

the other comment, about being a shill, is a lot easier to deal with, because inwardly i know it's not true. that said, there's a weird thing that happens when you flatten yourself, turning yourself into a 2-dimensional piece of content from a 3-dimensional person. things get lost, and people will judge what they see in front of them. that's just how that works.

this channel will continue to work with brands and makers to showcase music products that i think are cool. i hope that's ok with you. also have you tried raid shadow leggings, i heard about it on my audible squarespace meundies. 

i've said it once, and i'll say it again: thank you for being here and supporting this weird shit i do. it means a lot.

-j