Been Dealing (Patreon)

I'm still here...

Sorry it's been a bit, but it's been a bit of an emotional roller coaster the past week. Can you blame me?

Penny was the first I told. She would not stop texting me, asking if I took the test. Of course, had to rub it in that she was right... I was dreading telling my mother. But she is all excited. WTF, Right?

I have not even told you if I've decided to keep it yet, and you're talking about how excited you are to be a grandma... Like WTF, Mom? You're barely 40, and spent our childhood telling me and Penny how dumb you were to have kids so young...

This family is so messed up... God Help this kid.

But yeah, I think I'm going to keep it...

I think I wanted to be a mom someday, and the thought of giving a kid up for adoption, or the other 'A" word... I just don't think I could do it. Not that I judge women who do. It's just this is what I think is right for me. You know?

I don't even know how far along I am. I saw my GP today, and she referred me back to the same OBGYN who prescribed the damn birth control... That woman is going to get an earful, when I go in.

Speaking of not knowing how far along I am...

 Where the hell did that come from? You all saw me in this outfit just a week ago. That was not there! Maybe I'm just bloating... Is that a thing? I should not be far enough along to be showing any...

I still have not talked to 'the father'. Not looking forward to that. Nice enough guy, but was supposed to just be a fling, not something long term...

Ugh! Why does life have to get so complicated?

Anyway, lot of love,
💕Penny.