artist talk + plans for June! 🦌 (Patreon)

hey guys, i hope you're well 🌻🌈 summer suddenly happened?? and it's very hot, but i'm still (or because of it?) in a real good mood! 

scene 37 is almost done! i'm working on the background coloration now, which is the last step before lettering, so i will update scene 37 tomorrow for $5+ patrons! 💙 and i promise you it will be extra nice this time~ 

usually i would've panicked at the end of the month, trying to finish it even though so much was still missing. even though i know most of you would've not been mad at me or anythingi often still go ohhfuck! but this time i just noticed it's better if i take my time. i think i'm experiencing something like growth right now hahah i really don't know how else i could describe it! but right now i feel comfortable to just take it a bit easier, and i think it has a lot to do with myself. i think i'm beginning to accept some parts of myself i kinda felt guilty for

for example, i updated for public a few days ago and for the first time in months i didn't feel nervous or anxious about it. i could just enjoy the reactions to it instead. i know a lot of those fears are caused by myself and my own guilty feelings. invisible pressure to keep up with the industry, and all those different expectations, but especially my own. it will still take a while until i can shake it all off, but it helped me so much to see that even if i struggle sometimes, my readers will still be there and be interested ; _;

on another note, i'm absolutely in need of a focused writing session. i've made a lot of progress this week. i've changed some things that were necessary and i love how it is developing right now. i wish i could show you my writing process, too! i wish i could tell you what happens sdjfhh the changes i'm currently working on make much more sense than the current draft! it's a lot of progress between Robin and Noah in all directions. i'm happy whenever i can see the light after a while

scene 38 is the start of volume 3, and will be a shorter scene mostly from Noah's POV. i'm easing my way into the big scenery change........

here's a first glimpse of where part of volume 3 will take place: (guess where?)

in June i will mostly work on:

🌿 finish + update scene 37 for patreon

🌿 biiig writing session  

🌿 working on scene 38 (i will be able to show more wips again!)

🌿 public update at the end of the month (scene 36)

🌿 practice&sketches

🌿 requests