Dear Diary, a really sexy week. (Patreon)

Today was a good day. 

I had some stresses this past week or so, and then someone bought me some sexy shoes off my Throne Wish-list. And then someone else bought me more sexy shoes (like seriously, I'm so excited). People have been so very kind and attentive to me, and I have felt so encouraged and loved.

Today I got a notification that someone bought me the Nora Lovense Bluetooth sex toy anonymously (and some hilarious Nick Cage items) and I don't know why, but I was sitting here with my jaw dropped, and instantly wet.

I could feel my breath catch as I realized the fun toy was going to be cumming (heh) straight to my house. If any of you listened previously when I was gifted a toy, I pretty much lost my mind because I hadn't had one in a very long time, and this one can be controlled from afar, which is leading my imagination some places very naughty.

I am blushing and excited and I can tell I'm getting wet, but I'm not in a place where I can play right now, and it is leaving me so desperately wanting. Now, I know some of you are masters of your domain and have edged and denied yourselves, but I am not that kind of girl. It has been over 24 hours since I came last, and now I'm desperately counting down the moments to when I can be alone with myself, to enjoy what I know will happen in a few hours to the fullest. I don't know how people go days without cumming on purpose. 

I have been bought a number of things off Throne and every time I get this jolt of crazy energy. Things from lip balm, to honey, a chocolate cock to a whip. Every time I feel this surprise and awe and overwhelming sense of gratitude. It's so much that you are here, and I am so appreciative of that. I'm working on the script for the hot tub hypnosis to celebrate 100 patrons, which has also put me in a great headspace for horny.

I am not one that has ever needed or expected gifts, so to have received some really sweet gifts has been so crazy to me (in an amazed omg sort of way). 

I must get back to my script, but now all I can fantasize is about the toy that is being boxed and shipped and will someday be inside of me. Manipulating my thoughts like I manipulate yours sometimes. Pulling me closer and closer to that bliss filled crescendo I love so very much. The pulse inside of me is throbbing right now with want. There is a part of me that wonders about Bluetooth, and who will get to operate my new toy from afar, and how exciting is that? I know I'm dripping with the feeling right now. 

Whoever anonymously sent this gift to me, if you are here (it occurs to me it could have come from anyone on Reddit), thank you. I'm aching already. 

Happy Humpday darlings. 

-Smutty 💝