Photo-a-Day / self love / Julie Hunter (Patreon)

 I've spoken on this before recently, but in August last year I gained 15 pounds. It was really sudden and was brought on by a new relationship at the time. I have managed to shed about 6 of that, but the mirror's reflection is still a struggle to bare daily. I know I am not necessarily "big," but in regards to the industry, I am. I also know that I preach health and body positivity; it is not that I do not follow that, but more so that I am trying to listen to my words. I want to lose the rest of the weight for my health, my comfortability, and my art.

I used to work out every single morning before class - every morning! That was about 3 years ago. The decline was gradual, but now I barely work out at all. I am pushing myself to try and get back into that habit. I know it is good for me and I know it will give me the results that I want, but as we all know, depression is a bitch and you are your own worst enemy.

I don't need anyone to tell me I am beautiful. I don't need to be told that I am not "fat" or anything else. It does not matter what you say, because it won't change how I feel. Only I can fix what I find to be a problem. You can't make anyone else do that for you.

If you want change, then change.

Photographer/workshop: Naturally Boudoir
MUA: Staci Gibbs
Wardrobe: beshamelessinc
Model: Jenovax Lilith
Georgia 2019