Mel update (Patreon)

hi melons,

this is hard to admit, but i am really struggling. i have been spiraling into the gutters all month. to make a loooong story short: going no contact with my family saved my life, but that doesn't mean i escaped unscathed. it's been close to 5 years since i last saw them, but i still have literal and mental scars that may never heal. my therapist went on vacation this month (valid, people need breaks) so I didn't have any way to help me process the hurt that was surfacing.

i'm very worried about upsetting my melons with the lack of content, but i know i need to take care of myself. i'm having some serious mental health struggles that i can't ignore. i'm currently focusing all my energy on climbing back out of the deep, dark, depression hole. feels like running a marathon while wearing concrete shoes. please send me your good thoughts & vibes, but don't worry too much melons - my existence is resistance. i'm strong, i deserve to live, and most importantly, i want to be here.

my birthday is next month (shoutout to my fellow august virgos) and of course i have to celebrate it with my melons! i'm gonna clear my head, take some deep breaths, and come back even better than before :)

mel

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