paula cole (Patreon)

gnite bb 

the bridge in that song and then 

i 

       feel so 

low

today I tried something good for me and i still felt bad. I know wallowing makes you feel worse but I only wanted to listen to depressing songs today. then I thought sugar would help because sometimes you’re actually so dumb that foods make you feel better so I walked to this insanely kiddishly-ornate ice cream shop in a Hasidic neighborhood and all they were playing was like…mafia funeral music and I wanted to km while eating soft serve. i was looking at the clowny ice cream cakes and I said I want to be a sprinkle and my date laughed which startled me because I forgot he was there…poor him. poor me. using people makes you feel guilty but then you remember everyone uses everyone and he got to have you out of it. can you be addicted to something if no one knows it it’s bad for you? Wow those edibles.