releasing a feeling / you're dead to me (Patreon)

i was listening to the lyrics of "Say it Right" by Nelly Furtado and it fucked me up so much thinking about how much weight i put onto a crush. it's really pathetic because i know once i just get under another, i'll get over that one but it feels really devastating atm to think that i could be so delusional, lonely, and panicked that i can't even see that im just standing there alone and he's like la di da...well this was fun

i know nothing is changing but im just getting old and the pool gets worse and worse

reddit said the best way to get over someone is time, distance, and distraction...has anyone ever been patient enough to put their faith in the first two?

funny enough, i read an interview about how that song came about and she said it was gibberish and she doesn't even know what she's trying to say bc it was like 4 am. which actually just makes it more fitting. timbalind is one of my all time favorite producers. 

UPDATE: I got the ick. CRUSH OVER