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Hera Part 3

Entry 15

Everyone keeps telling me that now I’m a girl I need to get my beauty sleep! Well, after the nightmare I had last night, I’m not sure I’m going to be able to sleep again. I’m kinda glad it’s morning. My eyes are sore, but I’ve gotta get up and brush my hair.

I realize I’ve got a new problem. I’ve been sitting in front of the new vanity mirror that Mom brought me, staring into Hera’s eyes for ages. It’s funny—the first few days I’d gaze in awe at her feminine beauty, but all I see now is how desperately I need to do my makeup and get some concealer on!

Still, I can’t shake the image of the poor girl trapped in my dreams.

I can see why the scientist said I should keep this journal. It’s been a bit of a lifesaver. Really calmed me down last night being able to scribble down my thoughts. I’m a typical guy—I like to lock my feelings away, so this is a real departure from that.

I’m going to talk to Mom about the dream when she gets up and I’m hoping she’ll take me to the lab so I can report about it. As far as I know, no one else who’s inhabited Hera’s body has had nightmares, so I’m sure they’d be interested to know!

Although, maybe I’m the problem? Maybe I’ve done something wrong?

I was feeling pretty good about myself yesterday. Maybe accepting this female body so quickly isn’t normal? I have no idea! Maybe I should dial it back a little today and act a little less girly.

Entry 16

Just wanted to note that I’ve done my hair and makeup in record time. Only took me an hour to get ready this morning!

Even Dad commented on how pretty I looked –that’s a first!

Still, he did make me feel a little uncomfortable by asking if I’m doing it for attention from boys, but it’s still a compliment all the same.

In all honesty, I wish that was true in some ways. If looking pretty meant Jonny would talk to me again then that would really help solve the issues between us. I messaged him again last night and he’s completely ignoring me.

At the risk of taking my genderswap too far—Boys, I don’t understand them anymore!

Also, I told Mom about my dream and she was also really curious about it. She said I should question a few of the boys who have been Hera and school and see what they say about it before reporting back to the lab. I guess she’s worried we’d be wasting their time?

I’m not sure that’s going to help. I feel like we should go straight to the scientist about it, but I think Mom just assuming I’m making and mountain out of a molehill.

Am I making a big deal out of it?

I’m really not sure!

It wasn’t like any dream I’ve ever had before, but I supposed I’m not myself right now.

Entry 17

So at school now and it’s lunchtime. Me and Stacey have gone on a fact-finding mission! We’ve been cornering the boys who have been Hera in the past to ask them questions.

First, we found George, who was Hera at the beginning of the year. Unfortunately for us, he said he never had any nightmares about a trapped girl.

He did comment on how well I’m adjusting to being her. He complimented my look and said it took him until the end of the month to even attempt makeup on his own. That kinda makes me feel good.

At least I’m good at something in life—even If it is just applying makeup.

Maybe I can go to work as a make-up artist. I’m sure guys do that job too—can’t all be women?

Second, we found Rohan.

Rohan seemed a little less interested in talking with me. It’s almost like he was in complete fear to be anywhere closer to Hera’s body. Kinda made me feel really awkward—like how the elephant man must have felt.

We did manage to get a few words out of him, but nothing concrete. From what I gather, he had a really hard time adjusting to being in a female’s body.

I believe that they cut his time short because he had so many issues. No wonder he didn’t want to be anywhere near me. It was kinda hard at first to acknowledge and accept all the new sensations of a body like this.

I do get that it’s hard. Losing my manhood was extremely odd at first, but I know it’s only temporary.

The last person we asked was Eugene. His reaction to me was the reason we stopped asking the questions. No, he didn’t have any nightmares when in Hera’s body.

However, he really wanted to kiss me. Apparently, that’s all he thought about for the entire month that he was a girl. So as soon as we went over, I guess the only thing on his mind was to push his lips against mine.

I wasn’t about to let that happen. I barely know him. No way was I going to kiss him. I think I’m going to have even more nightmares now with the way he was looking at me with such lust.

Just gross.

Entry 18

Panic!

I’ve locked myself in a cubical in the girl’s bathrooms. Stacey is waiting outside and I don’t think I can face her!

Stacey just kissed me!! SHE JUST RANDOMLY KISSED ME!

She kept waffling about how funny Eugene was for wanting to kiss me. I didn’t think much of it until she ushered me into the girl’s bathroom and tried to stick her tongue down my throat.

I was just checking my face in the mirror and when I turned around she pinned me up against the sink. I couldn’t escape her clutches and before I knew it, she was leaning in to smooch my face.

I’ve just had my first kiss with a girl—as a girl!

I didn’t know what to say or do. I kissed back, but I think that was to be polite!

I’ve gone and made it super awkward for us both now!

I’m sitting here, on the throne, pretending to go number two. It’s the only thing I could think of to get out of the situation. Should I make some struggling noises to make it seem legit!?

This is darn awkward. I don’t think I’m interested in her like that. Plus, even if she is attracted to me right now, this body is temporary. I won’t be Hera forever—so what on earth is she thinking?

Is she coming out to me?

I don’t want to not be supportive! It does kinda add up to why she enjoyed being in the male avatar body so much. She probably enjoyed being able to like girls, as a male, without any worry.

I need to get out there and face the music

Entry 19

This isn’t an entry about Stacey. That’s another subject completely.

I did build up the courage to come out of the cubical, but I don’t think I handle the situation well at all. I mean, who would have!?

Anyways, Stacey stormed off. I’ll call her later.

That’s however not what got me seriously spooked. After Stacey ran off from me, Rohan approached me and pulled me into an empty classroom to talk.

After our interaction earlier and how nervous he was in my presence, it blew my mind that he was being so forward with me. Turns out he did have nightmares when in this body.

What he’s told me has given me chills. Like, I’m still shaking as I write this. He’s had the nightmares exactly like mine! From what he tells me, it was every single night. The same trapped girl calling for help every single night.

He was able to detail everything I remember about my dream last night. Almost like he was there. It’s seriously creepy! No wonder he wanted to come out of Hera’s body early. That would have creeped me out too.

I feel bad for him. He doesn’t seem ok. Like he’s suffering from PTSD or something. He seems haunted by it. He talked a lot about how his real body had scratches all over it when they put him back to normal.

Strange.  I asked him if he told the scientist. He says he did.

They didn’t help him. They apparently just kept suggesting he’s making it up and that he should stop talking about it. I mean, he didn’t say it in as many words, but I’m pretty sure they’ve threatened him to silence.

He was quite adamant that we talked alone. I’m not even sure if I should be documenting this, but I need to at least write down my thoughts. My head is a complete mess right now. So many thoughts and feelings!

Should I tell the scientist about the nightmare too?

Who is the girl in the dream!?

What am I not being told!?

Entry 20

Stacey still isn’t speaking to me.

I think I’ve ruined my friendship with her.

Typical!

Finally, a girl starts to like me, but I’m a girl myself. That is literally my luck.

In positive news, I have something to report. Cos I was so freaked out after school earlier, Jonny came over to talk to me. He said he could see me stressing out and was worried about me.

I told him what happened with my nightmare and the awkward situation I find myself in with Stacey. He laughed at me, but I have to say it was nice to be speaking again. He walked me home and he had some very curious thoughts to share about what's happening to me right now.

I’ve really missed him. He is my best friend after all!

Still, we talk a lot about this gender swap program. As far as I know and with everything I’ve read about the female body I find myself in, she’s a test tube baby. So has no traditional mother or father.

But that begs the question. Even if the body was grown, the DNA for it must have come from somewhere….right? So Hera must have a mother and a father by proxy. Also, if Hera really was grown, she must have had a consciousness at some point.

They can’t have just grown an empty shell! Surely for the brain to develop into its teenage years, it must have had someone living within it. Wouldn’t it be easy to suggest that in the same way they removed my consciousness from my body, they removed the original Hera’s consciousness from this body?

Make sense right? But if that is true—where is Hera now!?

All these tin foil hate theories are freaking me out! What have I got myself into with this!? Am I in trouble or danger?

Jonny seems to think so!

Entry 21

It’s the middle of the night.

I can’t bring myself to go to bed in fear that I’ll have the nightmare again.

Jonny’s meeting me outside in the next few minutes. We’re sneaking out. Jonny tells me there's an old facility on the industrial estate that the gender swap scientists used to use before they move to the expensive building they're in now.

We’re going to go have a look around and see if we can find anything about Hera! I don’t hold out any hope that we will find anything, but I’m happy we are friends again!

Plus, I can’t stop thinking about it. So many ‘what ifs’ swirling in my brain!

My biggest concern right now—is my real body still safe!? What if they are experimenting with it without my knowledge!?

I have to find out more. Something just is not right about any of this.