Progress update #18 - Final episode (Patreon)

Hey everyone.

I would like to apologize first and foremost for the lack of update recently.
I had to take a step back because of a few things that happened, and more than I chose to do it, it was forced upon me by my own body and my brain. For the first time in a long time I was unable to work, eat, go out, clean my place, etc.
I spent a lof of my last weeks on my own just getting some rest, at least as much as I could anyway.

I won't go into details over what happened, but I think that breakdown was long overdue. So at least, I like to believe it's behind me now. It's not like it's healed and gone, but it was a necessary evil towards a better future if you ask me.

So, as of today, I'm getting back to work.

Bad thing is, my rendering station is out of work. I'm already running behind on schedule, and that's not going to help.
I realized that part of the mental breakdown was because of the stress I put on myself trying to make it to deadlines which I solely decided to set.
Thing is, I don't like to take my time, I feel like I'm procrastinating, so I set deadlines kind of short in the future, with the hope that this'll put me in deadline mode and that I will work like a maniac. After all, this worked so well with the last three episodes and the Special Christmas. Although either I'm getting older, or I reached the limit of that deadline mode, but this isn't as efficient as it was and I stress myself much more.

It's why I'm trying to put less and less stress upon me. And I try not to think of a time where the game will finally be ready to be released and rather think of what I can do today, and tomorrow, and the day after. Take things as they come. Good thing is, this week is the last at the restaurant I work at. I will be off the service industry soon.
This will help me get some rest, have a routine, a better lifestyle and therefore work more efficiently on the game.

I also have the stress of finding another job, but I think I'll manage.

So yeah, I won't talk about numbers this week, because frankly that hasn't changed since last time.
I need to create the customs, the 4k wallpaper of this month, I'm going to create an animation so that I can give maybe 2-3 days worth of work to my rendering station, and starting tomorrow I'll get back on the statics.

I really want to apologize for the lack of communication. It's not me giving up on anything, I'm just human and happened to have failed at maintaining a constant workload recently.
Let's get back to it.

I wish you all a great week,

MisterMaya