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Let's face it: Nostalgia is often heavily rooted in locations, and not only events. Today's episode of KnockBack seeks to explore that idea, going over the homes we've lived in with a fine-tooth comb in order to extract some deeply-held memories. From a few houses on Long Island for the both of us, to Colin's experience living in Maine and New Hampshire for a few years as a kid, it turns out that by focusing on where we lived, and not only when, we can grab onto the past in ways we never thought possible. And listener memories of your own childhood homes -- of which we include many -- round things out to an even greater degree.

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Tim J Weckwerth

This patreon notification is quickly becoming my most anticipated event of the week! Thanks guys!

josh

When I was a kid we lived in a two story house that looked like it was haunted at night. It had a beaten down garage that my friends and I would "dare" each other to explore at night alone. We had no doors in the house for the rooms so there wasn't much privacy. Best house I ever lived in and I would love to be able to go back with my family for memories sake.

Ryan Harvey

This episode is really special to me, I moved at least 14 or 15 times growing up so I can understand the transient nature of moving growing up. I went to 12 schools until I graduated high school.

Andrew Christensen

Man Colin, I'm really sorry to hear about how much pain you feel from missing your home. I also feel this way sometimes, missing my childhood and wishing I had enjoyed it more during the moment, and it brings me close to tears.

Ethan Barbee

I have a lot of random memories of my childhood homes. The first I could remember was the first time I had ever experienced snow (it was Central California in about 1997 or 98) but the house I hold the most dear is actually not my childhood home but rather the home we lived in on Virmargo Street when I was in middle school/high school. Lost my virginity there, threw my first ever high school party (it went horribly), got high for the first time, met my first long term girlfriend down the street from there, etc. It wasn’t the house I was born in - but it was the one I LIVED in.

Richard Duflo

I was yelling “Buckethead” at my radio in my car lmao

Jason Stafford

This was a fun topic to hear others' memories. I was always kind of jealous of people who lived in "real" houses as I've lived in mobile homes my whole life. Even now I live in a 4 bed, 2 bath doublewide that we bought in 2000 for 40k. It's not much, but the house and the acre it sits on are paid for free and clear, so I'm very grateful. I'm a big homebody like you Colin. By the time I was 24, I had moved 27 times in my life (mostly from trailer park to trailer park when I was young) and I've been in one spot 19 years now. I don't care if I ever move again.

Brandon Soto

Really great episode, Colin. I’m 26 now, and my parents got divorced when I was in the 1st grade. I lived in about 8 different places with my mom, but still managed to go to the same school somehow. I always think about all the arguments and stuff still to this day. It’s definitely a deep, personal subject. I personally think you should follow your heart & do what makes YOU happy. Find a place that’s way cheaper & nicer for now & go from there. Just my 2 cents.

Will Hahn

Dang man, I knew you talked about wanting go back to your old house one day and buy it, but I never knew to the extent of how much nostalgia that house really brought you. It’s unfortunate that you felt like that moment when you left was robbed from you. However, the somber yet wonderful way you described your experiences with that part of your life makes me root for you to the ends of the earth to go back and get that house one day. Wonderful episode. I hope you you meet that goal because you 100% deserve it!

Anonymous

This is one of those episodes that really brought back a lot of happy and bittersweet memories growing up in Connecticut. I haven’t been back since 2004 and I wish I could take the trip. I can really relate...

Owen

I’m listening to this podcast while I’m putting together a bookshelf for my future sons nursery. Our first child, in our first house together. The timing of this episode is really emotional for me because my home stopped feeling like home in high school. For no real reason but my parents kinda just stopped caring about the state of the house. They stopped having family over as often. Just kinda fell apart as I was ending my child hood. And now here I am with my first child, my son on the way and I how I wanna do right by him and my wife. I want us to build a home that someday elicits these strong feelings for him and for us. And there’s like tears in my eyes as I’m writing this because it never hit me so hard how important the feeling of “home” can be for people. I appreciate this episode boys.

Owen

Side note: meditation is often misunderstood it’s not about quieting your mind per say. It’s about letting the thoughts come and go. You might look into some apps like 10% happier where they kinda teach you about mindfulness. I think you might find more value in it than you think. Maybe have someone on fireside chats that knows about those practices, give you some more insight. One person who has a lot of experience with it that you’ve talked to before, Brandon Jones. Might be worth lookin into.

James O'Donnell

Just finished this episode and guys I think it was my favourite one so far, which is strange to say because of how personal it is to you both. It summed up everything that is Knockback. The honesty, the humour, the good times and bad. Hats off to both of you. I love this podcast so much for how each and every episode can resonate with me in different ways.

LastStandMedia

Four bedrooms and two baths on an acre -- in the clear, nonetheless -- is certainly nothing to scoff at!

LastStandMedia

I think that's the thing... I never really got closure. I was too young to even know what closure was. The house is worth about $600,000 today. I still have hope in my mind that I'll reacquire it...

LastStandMedia

Yeah, man. The timing seems serendipitous. I hope you can do for your family what your family maybe couldn't full deliver for you.

LastStandMedia

Eh, I don't really want to have Brandon back on, with all due respect. But I'm open to discussing the topic with someone else, for sure.

Connor Peterman

I heavily relate to that feeling of wanting to turn back time to do everything different. It's only by going to therapy I've realized I've been living with depression since at least early highschool. What if I had caught the red flags growing up? Would I have done better in school? Would I have close friends that I didn't unintentionally push away? That feeling of wanting to go back really really does suck and I feel you there man.

Eric Cibak

Hey Colin! Have listened to you for 7 or 8 years now and this is the first time I’ve really wrote in... This hit home for me in so many ways... no pun intended... I could share so many thoughts and memories of my childhood... I think about it everyday (I’ll spare you lol) Wanted to share something cool I found though... my childhood home that we left in 1998 went up for sale in 2011... in a night of nostalgia a week or two ago I googled my old address and found that the MLS pictures were still up on Zillow and realtor.com... was totally cool and surreal to see the inside of it again... might be worth a shot :) Thank you for doing this show... listening to you and Dagan is a highlight of my week! Feel like I’m reminiscing with old friends when I listen...

Anthony Longo

Great episode and hopefully cathartically helpful for my boy Colin M. My parents were divorced when I was about 11-12 and it still bothers me even tho I deny it and have always denied it to my parents. Come to think of it this is the first time I’ve ever really said it. Heh. But anyway Colin we are the same age I’m a few months older but I’ve found that growing up never stops. We like to think we are mature but I don’t think it ever really ends. I wonder if my parents felt the same way. Or maybe it changes once you plant roots and make your own new “home”. Luckily you have the resources to forge an ideal path which you can craft to your liking. One thing I do know is whatever happens to us early on makes the person we are now , good or bad. As long as nothing super traumatic (sex abuse , physical abuse etc) happened when we were kids then I consider us lucky ya know. But with divorce it’s different for all the kids depending on their age , I’m the second of 4 so I saw some things that I’m glad my baby sister didn’t have to. It’s just different not worse for any of us. Anyway great episode guys and I want to thank you for getting very personal.

Tyler

Divorce is definitely something that can “rob” a child of, well, their childhood. That’s a topic, fireside chat perhaps, I’d love to talk about (what do you think , Colin?). Anyways, great episode gentlemen!

Anonymous

My parents got divorced when I was 8. It’s weird that I only dream about the house I was at while my parents were together. Going forward I felt cheated out of of an actual family life. Made it worse I was an only child. I’ve always felt this way my whole life. This episode really resonated with me

Marcus Brown

Guns & Roses references right from the start, I love it!

John Lynch

Colin, I just wanted to let you know this episode touched me. I had a pretty tough childhood, and so I had similar feelings of not having a home due to always moving every year or two. I recently bought my first home where me and my wife are making new memories with my newborn who watches the office. I just wanted to reach out to you to let you know that once you settle down and start a family in a house that feeling will change. It did for me so I’m confident it will for you. I hope sooner rather than later. Thank you for this episode

Anonymous

Star Wars toys: Dear Colin and Dagan, My question is what is your favorite stars toy vehicle? When I was in the 5th grade I asked my parents for an an Empire AT-AT vehicle. I always asked for it every year for Christmas since I could remember but never got it. How ever that year after opening all the presents with my sister and thinking to myself that it was another year with out getting something that I truly wanted my dad surprised me by bringing out a large wrapped box. What I found inside was the Battle of Endor AT-AT which I cherished from that day forth and still have today being a 24 year old man. Thank you guys for bring a smile to my face every week. Sincerely Johnathan Crane

Anonymous

The house I primarily grew up in was freedom looking back on it. 3 acres of green grass to run around, a pond, and plenty of woods to dick around in. While I spent a lot of time with video games, I think I spent just as much or more outside on my playground. - Jacob

LastStandMedia

It's very hard not to live in that space. I can't say I'm glad you can relate, 'cause it's not necessarily pleasant.

LastStandMedia

Thanks for writing in. I'm glad you're enjoying our show! It's funny, 'cause I was just on Google Streetview the other day looking at the old house...

LastStandMedia

Thank you. It was cathartic, but then again, I'm afraid nothing will ever be quite cathartic enough, y'know?

LastStandMedia

Perhaps one day. It's something that I was at peace with for a long time, but am becoming less so as time goes on, which is strange.

LastStandMedia

That's a shame, man. And perhaps magnified by the fact that you had no one to commiserate with, as it were.

LastStandMedia

Thanks, John. I wanna buy a house in the next couple of years and begin making some memories, for sure.

LastStandMedia

Hey dude, wrong thread! If you see this, be sure to C&P it into the proper place. <3

LastStandMedia

Me too. Being outside was part of life. It's so strange how little being outside means to me now.

MeatSpin11

First, appreciate the comment read. Second, I'm sorry to hear the difficulties of moving Colin. My wife and I are military and I often wonder too how unfair it'll be to my kids that they'll constantly be moving around. My uprising in one spot was special to me. I grew up a Husker fan cause of my love of Nebraska and the area and like what you said with the Isles/Jets, I wonder if it'll feel a little forced making my kids fans too (even though they will be...)

LastStandMedia

It sucked moving, but it strangely sucked even more in hindsight. At the time, I took it like a champ.

RandyVa

Great episode! I feel like a neighborhood friends chapter is next. Keep up the good work.

Craig Birchmeier

I was lucky enough to have the opportunity to visit my childhood home that I left at 9 years old. It was roughly 20 years since we moved. The house was for sale and the realtor was having an open house. As a very nostalgic person, I expected to be overwhelmed with nostalgia when I entered the door and was surprised to not be at all. The overall layout was the same, but with completely different furniture, wall colors and carpet, it didn't feel like the house I grew up in. I am glad I did it but you may be surprised if you do visit your childhood home someday. I hope it's the opposite for you though if you do get the chance. Great episode.

Jeremiah Lyne

Dagan is such a natural story teller, he’s great at capturing the original humour of the situation as well - “it’s happening!!”. Colin is so honest in these episodes, you almost feel privileged when you get to hear his childhood stories/experiences.

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2022-01-24 10:30:17 Thank you for your kind words. <3
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Thank you for your kind words. <3