Sesska's Favorite TV Moment of the Week (12/31-1/6) (Patreon)

Here we go. 

I can’t even begin to tell everyone how heartbreaking losing 11 was for me in the world of Doctor Who. He saved the show for me. He made the show for me. However you would like to put it. I think it was a mixture of the writing, his relationship with Amy & Rory, Matt’s acting and the type of example 11 led by. 

In a year where I felt really lost, I didn’t even realize how much I relied on 11 to help me through some dark times. So many times I was literally watching the episodes thinking he was actually talking to me and helping me through some difficult times I had been going through. I’ve touched on that a lot so I won’t go into great detail. 

There’s something about 11 that I can’t imagine will be topped in my mind. It’s something that is very difficult to describe. But when i think of his seasons, I feel very warm and happy. I think there’s a part of me that was scared to lose that and lose something or someone that really made me feel such happiness in very dark times. For that, I will always be grateful to him. 

The episode had some issues I think, but in general I did think the main idea of it was a great way to end 11’s run. The idea that he spent so many years there probably developing such loving relationships with everyone in that town is exactly perfect for 11 in my mind. His caring soul and ability to relate to so many people he came across was one reason I loved him so very dearly. It made me want to watch more of that time he spent there. 

Seeing him as an old man also made me very emotional but I think weirdly in a positive way. I wasn’t entirely sad (maybe because of the massive doses of denial my brain was feeding me) but it was kind of lovely to see. I always saw 11 as a wonderful old man which was such a testament to the way Matt portrayed him. It was really lovely to see an actual physical representation of that. 

And then we get to the regeneration. It’s really hard to describe this as a favorite moment but I guess if you look at my track record, the majority of my favorite tv moments are of really depressing scenes….no matter what show I’m referring to. Well….here I lost the man who made me fall in love with this show. Without 11, I wouldn’t have thought so fondly of watching the next episode and there’s a possibility I would have never dedicated an entire month to the show on my channel. 

I was also so thrilled about Amy returning. Absolutely no offense to Clara but once the scene started and I knew I was losing my honey. I did have a moment to think….I wish his final moments were with Amy and Rory. They were such a huge part of who 11 was and I felt so much that they were a family. And throughout all of the tears I was crying, the show delivered. When Amy walked down, I was so happy and sad all at once. It was a very strange feeling to describe. 

His speech at the end was wonderful. I really felt like he was speaking to all of us about how we can cope with change. And how we change as a person ourselves. Change isn’t always bad as long as you can remember who you once were or where you came from. It made me feel like he was holding my hand through a very difficult scene….just like he’s held my hand through this very difficult year. If I ever meet Matt Smith, I will tell him what he did for me. 

Amy called him Raggedy Man. 

I called him Honey. 

And I will never forget one moment of my time with My Doctor.