kiahin

Sneak peek #174 (Patreon)

Published:

2023-04-28 13:18:18

Imported:

2024-05

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Content

I finally made it

I've had serious troubles with Patreon access because I've lost one more working VPN. I hope this one will hold longer. But I want to leave a friendly reminder we have a Discord server where VPN doesn't block our updates: https://discord.gg/Sf7gA9B3nH

So, the last few months were hell hard both for me and YumiCH. She moved to another country and had to find any job possible. She wasn't very lucky with that and got a job with terrible conditions (unpaid overwork, standing all day long, harassment and many other unpleasant things). She damaged her back and finally quit. She feels better now, but needs a new job

As for Airis, I had my struggles too. Those who've read some of the previous sneak peeks might remember that I lost my grandmother two years ago and my alcoholic uncle was left with my old grandfather. I wrote that things were getting harder in October and, well, they turned even worse this winter. I described them in more detail in the month results.

My grandfather died at the end of March. I was thinking that maybe I could take one week rest and then get back to work, but I was so wrong. Maybe it is because he was the last of my grandparents or maybe because he suffered for so long and I was trying to do my best to care of him all these months, but it really broke me. I tried to spend some time with my friends, but all my thoughts were always back at the funeral and all the suffering we've been through.

I couldn't draw. I forced myself every day, but it just lead to a couple of strokes here and there and images that would take me hours earlier actually took me days then. I didn't give up though, but it was clear I'm not okay

I was lucky to have YumiCH by my side and felt much better after crying it all out and finally admitting I'm not okay. Guess that was the turning point and I woke up from that nightmare

Now I feel much better. Last weekend I managed to meet a friend and we had a nice chat without me diving into weird thoughts. And for the last few days I work almost at full power

I hope for the best in May. My loss is still very sad, but now I have more time for myself and for my work, so I will try to stay optimistic. I also hope to finally start streaming in May and join Discord voice chat occasionally.

And now is the time for some drawings!

First of all some month results that give a bit more details on the stuff I mentioned earlier