Happy New Year ! (Patreon)

Finally 2023 is over .Thanks again for still staying here and for the love and supports .Truth to be told ,I've been quite on a stress journey this year and decide to just stay quite a lot of the times . Hoping I can feel better .But things haven't been that great this year whether it's social or real life , and I felt that I lost all my sense of direction and purpose in life for some times .But I'm trying to fix that .

I want to create something that people would appreciate .Creating characters ,art and stuff ,anything in particular that just feels productive .But I have zero confidence .I used to draw a lot ,usually my own characters and sometimes fanart .And I know my style isn't perfect and it didn't reach out quite how I wish it to ,and my social skill aren't great ,and I eventually stop drawing till the point I forgot almost everything about it .

And it's not laziness ,I feel bad when I'm just laying around and not doing anything that have any purpose and having the urge to create or do something .That's why I sometimes post videos that's not ,something I usually care about (You guys should already know by now what I'm interested with / not ... I dunno) ,just make them ,post them and hope anyone will enjoy it .It get's quite exhausting and I'm glad there are still friends that still invite me to play games with them so I don't get overexhausted with making video .

Maybe I'll try going back to drawing again in the future ,maybe something related to ryona stuff and I probably post them here instead of anywhere else .Posing ,or using other 3d programs as well .But well ,a lot of important things I forgotten and definitely my skill will just be plain amateur till I get better again overtime .

Also ,I'll be stopping posting previews and short stuff on twitter / X ,that Musky Melon sites .Maybe just the previews on this year final videos will be my last post there and it'll only be retweet and stuff ... Instead ,I'll be posting everything here and fanbox .Full videos for the paid patrons while the previews are openly public with some short stuff I can find that I'm not feeling on turning into a full videos .It won't affect any subscribing patrons ,just maybe more notif for the previews?? Hope you guys don't get annoyed .Well ,the reason for this is ... I just find it useless and a waste of times hanging there .Not like I made much friends there since I feel like talking to a rock / a wall most of the times .And a lot of people just being unreasonably weird ,rarely in a good way .

Anyway ,if you read this whole thing ,I appreciate it and just wanted to let you guys now what I've been dealing instead of staying quiet .Otherwise ,it's not a new thing for me and I already get used to people just here for the contents .Overall ,have a nice year and thanks again for staying with me!