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First, I'm still alive; don't worry.
Well, I felt that I was developing a negative mindset slowly and gradually when watching my community. So, I stopped watching anything on the internet for about 3-4 weeks. Additionally, I stopped working.
Well, actually, I lost my way even now. I am going outside these days finally. (About 3 years, I didn't go outside by myself.) I am taking care of myself these days, going to the gym for a workout, meeting old friends, and going to some festivals. So, these days, I can talk with people finally. (Still, I don't have many emotions, but at least I can.)
Also, I am going to Japan for a trip at Christmas.
I tried to work again during the rest, but something in my mind... When I try to draw something, I lose my will and energy. I couldn't draw anything. So, I'm not sure how long I will rest; just now, I'm focusing on taking care of myself or searching for new life goals, or at least a reason for work. Also, I'm sorry for not posting anything about the rest. I felt if I posted something at that time, probably this loop wouldn't end forever. (Work - Depressed - Work) loop.
Anyway, I'm okay now, so don't worry. Also, you don't need to pay Patreon until I go back to work. When I get back to work someday, pay again when you guys want.
Well, probably I'm not going to make any internet relationships anymore. It ruined my soul three times in my life. I can't go back to when I had a really pure mind, sadly.
So, for now, I just want to be alone and live reality until I return to work.