It’s the small things. (Patreon)

Hey everyone.

❤️I want to thank you all from the bottom of my heart. You guys are all the greatest.

I have been a little down lately, feeling uneasy and scarred. Given the state of the world right now, I think I am in my right to be so, but I am holding it together.

This is actually a sketch I have been working on for a while.
I wanted to tell you a little about myself that I have learned about myself and my work. And I have actually talked with some other artists on Twitter about this exact thing. I am not the only one apparently who feel this way.

Btw, this is not a criticism of you guys, this happens over at DA at the most.
People over at DA tend to comment (sometimes… it’s rare now) in a way that seem to really ignore my work.

Like:

”Hey great work man, can you do (insert random character here) next? Make her really hot and make her (insert random unmentionable lewd act here) with a (insert a random organ of the male anatomy of reproduction here)?

I know… classy right ;)

Don’t worry, it’s not the idea of making the drawing of said character that scares me off… most of the time.
It’s the rather rude request given just after posting. I can work on a drawing for days at the time, ignoring everything around me. So to just shove it aside and ask for something else, feels really rude.

As I said, it usually happens at DA and in here you guys are so sweet as to at least ask me and then message me - and if you have ideas, let me hear them, 😊 I am always willing to listen. Just don’t become upset if I sound a little uninterested. I might not share the same interests as you - but that doesn’t mean that your ideas aren‘t good, just that I don’t share your interest.

But when a comment either says: Do this, do that… then I feel like Cinderella, and I am NO Cinderella… My mom would have gutted that stepmom had she been my fathers new wife. 😂

Such comments are in my mind just a way to say: Not good enough! Do it over!
And if I liked taking orders, I would have stayed in the army.

But honestly I love your comments. And also that many of you are really observant 🥰 Most of you (if not all of you😉) notice the details, and that really makes my heart flutter😘.

See, when I make a drawing, no matter which one, I put myself in it 100% maybe even more. I ignore sleep, I ignore hunger, I ignore pretty much my world around me, because I can enter a bubble, or a zone (a state) of such deep concentration that I feel like I simply fly through the universe at light speed.

I also experienced this back when I was a kid. I am sure my brain was high on endorphins, and I have been in love with that state ever since. And since I made this Patreon, and started making stuff for you guys… let’s just say, I am fully aware it is partially thanks to you that I was able to leave my depression behind me.

❤️ You guys have saved my life. And I love you all for it. I am so overjoyed that you enjoy my work that I can’t even begin to imagine it.
I want to record a video and talk to you just to put my truest words out in speak - just to empower them.
I think in times like this, we need more of it. We need to know the truth. And the truth is, I love you for your support. I love you for it. ❤️

I am difficult, I am stubborn, I am analytical and emotional. I am a huge piece of work, but I am truly yours.
Hammer

Uhm… btw uhm… It’s Herion and the Dragon is Kagarh 😂 I almost forgot to mention. Herion’s hair takes a long time to brush, and one snort from Kagarh and Herion can start over again. I thought it reminded me of something from my own world.