Let me ask.. (Patreon)

Hey, guys, this question is only going out to the patrons, you guys, the ones supporting me.

I wanted to let you know that I've been trying to write more, but I'm not sure if/when that's really going to happen. Like I said over on my blog, with dad gone I have more time to write, but I also have more responsibilities.

I feel such pressure to write, and I really don't want to let you guys down, but every time I try to write, I just can't get it going. I hate to keep pausing my Patreon, and keeping you guys on hold, but I also don't want to shell out crap and ruin my stories like before.

I've thought about closing my patreon, and blog, and just retiring completely, but that wouldn't be fair to everyone who likes my stories. I've thought about going on break again, because clearly I'm not as "over" losing my dad as I thought I was. (Woke up crying this morning, had a dream about him)

So I'm just being honest here, and I just don't know what to do. It's your money you're offering to support me with, and though I've paused it several times now, I don't wanna keep doing it and just stringing you guys along.

What do you think I should do? Please let me know, because I honestly have no idea.