Succubi - Ch.15 - Exposed (Patreon)

Friday and Saturday were definitely turning-points for me. That confidence boost helped me learn to deal with stuff, and I quickly started expanding my little list of things I had to be proud of or happy with. And I wasn't crossing stuff off the list like I did before. I even added back stuff I'd formerly crossed out.

When I was back in class again on Monday the negative vibes and stuff were still there, both from classmates and profs, but I did my best not to let it get me down anymore.

Instead I focused on all the positives that I had going for me. I was a cute sexy girl who happened to be part-demon. I had two incredibly hot girlfriends, who were both part-succubus. And I was friends with an ancient powerful demoness who could work magic. So what if I wasn't the smartest kid in class, so what if I sometimes acted silly or goofed-off? I was having fun and enjoying life, and if I got a smile or laugh out of my girlfriends or someone else, that was more important. 

And I started to understand what Melissa said, that those negative thoughts and stuff didn't represent the real me. That's just how those people saw me, and they didn't have the full picture.

It was like a weight was lifted, and instead of feeling like a curse I started to see that intuition thing as just another neat facet of being part-demon. Like being strong and seeing in the dark, it was a cool thing but didn't actually make a big difference to me.

So I got through Monday's classes just fine.

Then Tuesday at lunch, me and Melissa ran into Ethan who was there with his friends again. I spoke to him briefly and the two of us agreed to have lunch together the following day.

That worked ok except Lily happened to sneak out and feed Tuesday night, so I had absolutely zero appetite on Wednesday. I ended up just having a bottle of juice and sitting with Ethan while he ate, which made him a little uncomfortable. 

I wanted to come up with some elaborate story to explain why I didn't eat now and then, but luckily I bailed on that idea before I could make a mess of it. Instead I told him that every now and then I'd lose my appetite and left it at that.

And I was still kind of sad I didn't get the happy-energy-mood-boosts anymore, but I realized he might have been just as awkward sitting across from a slightly hyper bouncy horny Mara.

And even though I wasn't eating, it was still nice to spend lunch with him. We talked a little more about college and classes and stuff, and I kept sort of staring at him trying to get more of a vibe from him. And also just paying closer attention to him over-all.

Ethan wasn't a big guy, he was only a couple inches taller than me. Roughly the same height as Susan. It was harder to get a feel for his body-shape since it was always hidden under his large black hoodie, but from his face and his hands I had the impression he was on the small side, like skinny and probably didn't have a lot of muscle on him. 

He dressed like I used to, in mostly loose dark nondescript clothes. Like he was trying to hide himself, which in retrospect was a highly relatable thing. 

I didn't remember consciously hating my old body but I was never that comfortable with it, and even when I thought I was a guy I definitely didn't like to be reminded about it. So I sort of kept it hidden and didn't pay much attention to it. And I got the impression Ethan was doing the same, whether he knew it or not.

He was definitely soft-spoken, a few times I even had trouble hearing him over the din of the cafeteria. I figured he might not be comfortable with the sound of his own voice, which was another relatable thing. He didn't have an especially deep voice, but it was certainly in the 'male' range.

His shyness seemed to come and go, like talking with me he opened up more. But when other people were around he got quiet, almost like he wanted to fade into the background.

As for getting more trans vibes off him or impressions or whatever, I didn't really get anything else to confirm or reject my 'Ethan is a girl' theory. I still had that feeling he wasn't sure if he wanted to date me or be me, but nothing more specific than that.

By the end of lunch we'd made plans for a second date. He was going to borrow a car and pick me up on Saturday at about noon. He said he had an idea for a fun afternoon date, but he wanted to surprise me, which was fine with me.

We saw each other again on Friday, but he was having lunch with the guys and I was with Melissa. She already had her evening plans set so she didn't need to keep scanning the crowd, so the two of us talked while we both stole glances at Ethan now and then.

We could both tell he felt a little awkward and out of place with his dude-bro friends. Only one of them was actually a friend of his, the other two were friends of his friend. I actually got the impression Ethan would have been happier sitting with me and Melissa, except at the same time I got the feeling he was a little scared of my girlfriend. Like despite her acting like a ditzy bimbo or whatever, the fact that she was tall and sexy and gorgeous intimidated him.

I made a point next week to invite him to have lunch with me and Melissa anyways, I figured if he got to know her maybe he wouldn't be so intimidated. And it might help him in other ways too, if he started to feel sort of accepted as 'one of the girls'. Assuming that was a thing he might like.

And as usual the week ended with Friday afternoon drama class. I only acted like a goof a couple times and mostly took it seriously and did my best. I wanted the prof to know last week wasn't just a fluke. It was a little harder because this week's class was kind of boring and silly. It was a lot easier to be good when it was something I was actually interested in and wanted to do. 

Soon enough it was Saturday and I was anxious again as I got ready for my second date with Ethan. I didn't know where he was taking me, but he told me I could dress casual. And he promised we wouldn't be out in the cold, so I didn't need to worry about a hat and stuff like that.

I ended up in leggings and a cute skirt and blouse. I did my make-up a little nicer than usual, though it was still my dark happy-goth style. And I picked my winter jacket instead of a long coat. And of course I did the spell to hide my horns and tail again. That was almost automatic by now, every time I left the apartment I did that before I stepped out the door.

I was waiting in the lobby at noon and Ethan was there right on time. He was driving a blue minivan which just screamed mom-car, so I didn't need to ask who he borrowed it from.

We greeted each other as I got settled into the passenger seat. I was actually used to riding in the back and had mastered the art of cars and horns and tails that way. The mini-van had a bit more head-room so I wasn't worried about my horns, but it took some more adjusting than I was used to before my tail was comfortable.

Then he took me to an Italian restaurant for lunch, where we shared a posh authentic pizza. I got the feeling he wanted to impress me and wanted to do stuff sort of fancy, which was kind of cute. My tastes were way more simple than all that though, but I didn't have the heart to tell him I'd have been happy with a cheap pizza buffet or whatever.

At least the posh pizza was still tasty, even if it wasn't the kind of thing I'd normally eat.

We talked more over lunch, I got him to tell me about what kinds of art he was actually doing. Like what subjects he liked to draw or paint, and what he planned on doing after college.

He was into illustrations and was thinking about starting a web comic. He admitted he'd already drawn a few comics over the years, but never shared them with anyone. He was too embarrassed, he said the art was immature and the stories were garbage. I didn't know if it was my intuition thing or just my imagination but I had a feeling a lot of those comics involved guys somehow getting turned into girls.

Then he asked me the same sorts of questions about my photography, and I accidentally let it slip that I originally enrolled in the program to learn how to take better nude pictures. 

Ethan's eyes went wide and his cheeks turned pink, and I was positive he was thinking about me taking pictures of Melissa. 

I tried to get his mind off that stuff as I quickly explained that class was opening my eyes up to a lot of other things, and I wasn't sure yet what my interest would be going forward. Which was true, I was just sort of living in the moment and doing the assignments.

I also told him I was starting to really enjoy my drama stuff as well, and might want to do more of that in the future too.

After lunch we got back in the minivan and he took me to the main part of the date. It turned out we were going to the Ontario Science Centre, which was this huge multi-level structure built into the side of a deep ravine. It was like an indoor theme-park full of hands-on science exhibits and stuff, so you could like touch and play and manipulate things while you learned. 

I'd never been there before, but I'd heard of it. Back in grade four or five my class went there on a field trip and I missed it for some reason, then had to listen to everyone else go on and on about how cool it was.

And while it might have seemed like an odd place for a couple college kids to go on a second date, it was honestly a really cool idea and a cool place, as far as I was concerned. 

There were six different levels, with loads of different things you could do and learn and stuff. A lot of it was aimed at kids, but honestly I thought it was fascinating and fun regardless.

The two of us explored and I learned about electricity, sound, radio waves, and light. We played around with the hands-on stuff. We sat through a short educational movie about dinosaurs and meteors (the meteor won), then learned about more space stuff in their little planetarium. 

It actually made learning stuff really fun, even if I'd probably wind up forgetting everything I learned by next week. At least I'd remember how much fun I had learning it.

And of course we talked a bunch more while we were doing all this stuff. Ethan told me he'd been here before, but it was about five years ago. He seemed to be having as much fun with the place as I was, and I could totally see coming back here again. I kind of wanted to bring Sue and Melissa too, it was the sort of fun you wanted to share with friends.

We wandered into another of the exhibits together, this one was about heat and light. They had a thermal camera set up next to a big TV screen so you could stand in front of it and see a thermal image of yourself. The two of us stopped there and I was fascinated at how the different colours mapped out the temperatures of different parts of my body.

Ethan was staring too, but where I was smiling and having fun he suddenly looked like he was frozen in shock.

"Hey Ethan?" I asked when I noticed his reaction. "What's wrong?"

He looked at me with wide eyes, then looked back at the screen with the images.

I frowned and looked at the screen again, then my stomach lurched and my heart skipped a beat when I realized what he was looking at. 

His thermal image depicted a normal human shape. My thermal image had a pair of horns sticking up out of her head, and a spade-tipped tail swishing back and forth behind her legs.