Simple Dreams by Paper Demon (Patreon)

It's not that I don't understand the allure. I know it all to well. I've encountered several yokai in my time. Demons as they're called in Theria. Some will argue that Monette is not a true demon. That she is not slave to her hunger and does not thirst to drain men of all their life force; but that's splitting hairs a bit. She is a dangerous creature, beautiful and deadly... a demon in everything but semantics.

Like the Yuki-onna of my homeland, she sustains herself on the reiki of mundanes. Though those ice bitches cannot manipulate their form at will like a succubus, their natural beauty and allure hide the same deadly intent. Still, I have heard tale of benevolence and goodness among them. Most accounts say that they prey only on the foolish and men who mistreat women; but I've slayed one and I assure you, she'd have happily made of meal of me.

So do not take me for a fool when I say that I understand Monette's allure. All dangerous curves and full lips, piercing eyes that could look right through to the soul of a man. I know what she is, but, is that all she is? 

I've served with her for some time. Maybe a year and a half as a Raven initiate or 'fledgling', as the veterans often called us. I'd been serving directly under Maelyn Visenya, right hand of the prince and one of the Raven Knight Commanders when I first met her. To see a damn succubus presented as a Raven Knight, it blew my mind.

I'm not sure all the details, but she'd apparently crossed the Forbidding some time before and set herself up in Balinor. I'm surprised she didn't become addicted to her feeding, given that she'd almost enthralled half a town. Our illustrious leader, Adolyn, had defeated her somehow and lead her back to Bast to answer for her crimes. The King might have killed her, but apparently the Court Sorceress, Sierra, wished to simply cast her back beyond the forbidding. It was Adolyn with the clever and insane idea to have her join the Order.

I guess he figured with the oaths we have to take, bound by magic and etched on our souls, that the succubus wouldn't be a problem.  That didn't stop them from making her swear extra oaths as well. Monette once described her binding to me and I can tell you for sure it doesn't sound anything like what I went through. I kind of feel for the poor thing, even with all that, I think they've still keep a close eye on her. Nothing overt or abrasive, but it's definitely there.

I can't blame them really. I maybe a bit biased having spent so much time with her, but yeah, she is a dangerous Elderian. It's why I have done my diligence in fighting off her sexual advances and dismissing her constant flirting. She's taken a special interest in me for some reason and is especially obsessed with 'my taste'. For now, she will go on wanting. 

Sure, I can join the growing number of my brothers and sister in the Order. who joyously commit to keeping her fed. Little trysts that teach her to take only as much as she needs and no more; but that's a slippery slope I think. Mindless sex, feeding, that's like admitting she's merely a war beast that needs to be satiated. A pet to be fed and rewarded for her good behavior. Is there nothing else?

I'm sure there is, but it isn't on the surface, not where anyone could see it. There all concerned with what she is and what she can do for the Order. Don't get me wrong here, I'm no saint myself. I'm not exempt just because I've never given in to her physically.

I'm shamed to admit that I've dreamed of her.., dreamed of us. In my mind I've held her in the moonlight and ran my hands down the curves of her body. In my dreams I've pushed myself between her folds and given of myself to her. I've touched her, I've experienced her; mind, body, and soul. And in those dreams I've reached through to the heart of her and seen what lies inside.

But those were merely dreams. Dark dreams, passionate dreams, simple dreams. Simple dreams of a simple man, wanting to know if there is more to this creature than meets the eye. My dreams lead me to wonder and I do wonder; but if reality and my dreams are ever something that will align? Well, that dream just might not be so simple.