Inspiration (Patreon)

I think I'm a little different from most writers. When I write, I rarely make significant changes unless they're required by the story as a whole. If something doesn't happen the way I meant for it to, I just run with it. If one of my characters gets lippy, well, they're going to have Consequences.

In any case, I don't write and rewrite. I don't really even have 'drafts' the way other people talk about them. like, they write, and then have to do a massive overhaul because it's just disjointed thoughts. When I was in school, I actually used to write the 'final' version first, then go back and delete a paragraph, move some sentences, use the slightly wrong word, or whatever. Then I'd submit that as my rough draft, and then the final draft was easy. Just give the teacher the original, plus anything they caught that I didn't actually mean to mess up. (Sorry, Mrs. Wetterauer.)

All of which means that when something does go wrong, I really struggle to 'correct' it. This Thursday, for instance, my computer locked up. Hard. I lost everything I'd written that day, and it was a tricky introspective moment for Aspen. I rewrote it (on Friday, because I was so freaking sad that I lost the initial inspiration) and I am Not Happy With It. Hopefully, I can reclaim some of the original feeling, eventually, but I'm really sorry.

I'm not going to tell you when you get there, because I don't want to make anyone 'see' anything they wouldn't otherwise have, but I'm going to be biting my nails waiting for comments. I've never really been a nail-biter, either, so I may need to watch a tik-tok on how to do it correctly...