Weekly Update - 67 (Patreon)

Well, hello there.  It's Monday.

Anyone else excited about e3?  I keep bouncing between the cynical disbelief of AAA cinematic trailers and the smoke and mirrors I know is a huge part of video game trade shows and the feeling of "EEEEEEEE OMG NEW GAEMS I WANNA PLAY!!!"

Back when I was working for a game company I had several opportunities to actually attend e3, but I never did, because hearing accounts from the actual trade show floor by my coworkers.  It was nearly universally stated from everyone I talked to that for introverted nerds like us, the better experience was staying at home and watching all the announcements from the comfort of my own couch.  So I never went.  And I don't really regret not ever going.

Max Poster - Linework is DONE!!!  Flats have been started.

Character Page - Art is done, just waiting for the husband to find some time to do some coding.

Comic This Week? - Pretty sure yes.

Drawing: Page 105

Playing: Yet more Cyberpunk 2077... cuz... I've decided I need to 100% complete it.  Also a little bit of Binding of Isaac.

Rambling:

Oh jeez.  What to say this week.

I had a pretty severe depression episode this weekend.  I'm a lot better now.  Had a brief fight with the husband, cried and made up, realized how ridiculous all my brain shit really was.  It's amazing how the brain can convince me of things that simply aren't true if I let it.

As I've been researching mental conditions on my own, for my own characters and stories and just for my own curiosities about psychology, one thing that keeps coming up is how imaginative and creative people are more prone to experiencing severe mental conditions, particularly those that involve a disassociation (in various forms) with reality.  And we see that in many forms throughout history.  Many famous visionaries or historical artists are very often reputed or recorded to also be strange, quirky, weird, sometimes depressed or eccentric people.  It amuses me that creativity and some level of madness seem to kind of go hand in hand.

I think it's really quite amazing that our brains are so powerful that even reality can be replaced by our imaginations.  Obviously, the problem with mental conditions is that this is often a negative thing, or that it happens in a negative way, and that the reality we imagine is actually much worse than actual reality, but it really makes me wonder if somehow this power could be harnessed or purposed in a positive way.  At the risk of sounding like a corporate motivational speaker, how powerful can the power of positive thinking really be?

Perhaps it's a silly thing to muse about, a silly thing to wish for, and maybe even a scary thing to think about if we consider advances in technology that could somehow enable or control such a thing, but can you imagine if we could weaponize positive emotions and thoughts in the same way our brains often weaponize the negative ones?