Burnout [Writer's Blog #9] (Patreon)

Hello everyone, hope you're doing well.

Throughout my content creation journey, I realized that writing is my happy place, which leads me to the primary reason for this post. This post is less about writing and more of a vent. I don't know if I'll keep this up, but I thought it would be worth sharing.

I am on the cusp of burnout. If you don't know, I'm a full time university student while simultaneously working on content stuff and chasing a corporate career. This summer, rather than taking a break and only working on one thing at a time, I was doing an internship. I made the unfortunate mistake of not taking a longer break before I started school again and I'm paying for it now.

I MAJORLY overestimated my abilities and it has taken a toll on my physical health. I feel my body breaking down due to the stress. I'm not too worried about the emotional toll that it has taken on me, due to me being in therapy and fully believing that I will figure it out, but that doesn't mean that this isn't cause for concern.

I'm tired. I need a break. If I'm not working on school, I'm working on content, or I'm trying to prep for content. If I was only focusing on one thing at a time, I would have more than enough time to take care of myself, but I don't. 

I feel as if I'm spoiled for complaining. I'm deeply grateful for having the opportunities I do. I'm afforded the opportunity to receive a college education and the opportunity to make money off of something I truly love and am passionate about. It feels so wrong to be tired due to chances that other people would give everything they have for, but I'm not going to pretend to be okay.

I suppose this is why I've stopped working on any extraneous writing pieces that don't relate to the channel. I just don't have the time. I don't have the time, nor can I spare the energy to work on other things. My have to split my attention between school and content and it unfortunately is exhausting. I'm trying my best to keep a positive mindset, but today has been especially hard.

I don't know what the lesson of this post should be. I suppose I'm just releasing some stress by writing this. I guess the one thing I want you to take away from this post is to not overestimate your abilities. On paper, things may seem straight forward, but in practice it may not be the case. Your health is more important than your ego.

Thank you so much for taking the time to read this. Out of all the posts I've made this year, I think this is the rawest. I also want to make clear that I didn't make this post to mitigate the commitment I made to you all. I just needed to get this off my chest.

Take care and I'll see you soon <3