Restart & new date (Patreon)

THE RESET:

It’s been months and I've been trying to fight against what has been happening to me, but to no avail. I’ve been suffering panic and anxiety attacks constantly. Anxiety is getting in the way of my work, and that alone causes me greater anxiety. And then it becomes a vicious cycle. This has been the sum of years of overburdening myself and it has left me mentally exhausted and physically spent. I’ve decided to seek the assistance of a psychologist. Turns out I’ve got some PTSD (post-traumatic stress disorder) and a bit of depression.

I know that some of you might say that it’s me making up excuses to not work, but I can assure you that I have been making a concerted effort. I’m going to beat this thing, and shut up the naysayers and those who want to see me hurt. I must congratulate the haters out there - you came at me while I was down and almost out. I almost threw in the towel! But NO! Not gonna happen. I am NOT going to give up.

The first step is making the discord exclusive to patrons only. It has become an unpleasant place. Hate all day, and liars and cheats trying to rip off people. THE TOXIC PEOPLE CAN GET OUT!!!!!! I want my discord server to be a fun and entertaining place once again. We need more of those late-night/early-morning chats, with those spicy spoilers!

I know that several of you will be disappointed in me, but trust me when I tell you that I am more disappointed in myself than you could ever be. I was really looking forward to this year and meeting the goals I had set, and I’m not getting it done. If you wish to stop being a patron, I get it, I wholly do. I don’t blame any of you. Whoever stays, though, and can continue to support me in my worst of moments - I appreciate you and your support SO much. Thank you for your trust and understanding.

Massive and eternal thanks.

Your Down (but NOT out) Beggar.