📣Important Update (Patreon)

Usually I put my private life away in order not to interfere with my Patreon work but this is really serious and I need to address it to you all: 

My grandma was admitted to the hospital last Wednesday (19/4/2023) after experiencing breathing difficulties, chronic cough with phlegm which was misdiagnosed by a "specialist" GP from a clinic as stomach bloating and/or gas. 

At the hospital, the specialist immediately diagnosed her with water retention due to heart failure (HF) and the the HF causes all the other issues. It occurred at a peculiar timing where my dad was heading to China for a business trip while my mom was heading to Europe for her trip and my own trip would due to occur at 30th April.   

The HF is caused by three damaged valves and its inoperable due to her age of 89, doing so will run into the risk of passing at the operating table or a long, painful recovery period which nobody wants, hence the best choice of action is to make as comfortable as possible (i.e. Palliative Care) while controlling her body using strictly hospital medications.   

I took turns to take care of my grandmother during the 4 days Eid al-Fitr holiday and I being stressed out by just looking how uncomfortable she was, although her vital signs were okay, she wasn't feeling it and complained on and on about wanting to going home. Then, one night she was having difficulties again and lung infection was added to the already long list of stuff.

Soon after the lung infection clears after a course of antibiotics and things are looking up for her and it was time to discharge today (24/4/23), that is until only half and hour later after we got home, she got herself into trouble again after eating a vegetable cake and suffering from a panic attack, induced by her bloating and the recent trauma of the event that occurred, then it happened again and I was literally suffering from the same panic attack and had to call my aunt and cousin for assistant.   

Now at the time of writing, she is sleeping, I don't know how I am going to continue this, I am still shaking and my dad won't be at home until 4pm tomorrow (25/4/23).

I hope everyone understands what's going with me irl and when I stopped posting anything in the coming days, weeks or months. Its not a matter of if, but when.