Journal 1.10.2017 (Patreon)

I kept going in and out of sleep too early and I woke up at 8:34 to go to the little food mart down the street to buy candy, and stood there too long thinking, and ended up buying a box of conversation hearts, an ice cream bar, and hard boiled eggs. I'm going to use the hearts to have conversations with myself about all the important things in life like whether or not some imaginary person likes me. Or whether I'm going to have a Valentine. Or whether I'm going to call someone on the telephone and who does that at all anymore. I already ate the eggs and put the rest in the refrigerator. I put all of my food in the refrigerator, even the things that don't need to be there. It's cleaner. The hearts are on a shelf next to boxes of pasta stacked neatly at the back. I really wish they had Welch's fruit gummies. Those have a lot of vitamin C and I think that will help me staying inside all day during the winter because I'm neurotic and don't think things through logically all the time but I think about them. There's six inches of wall separation between me and a cold night and vitamin C could definitely help with that.