Sheffield_Con_Day- Tom E's Hypnotic Experience (Patreon)

This write up corresponds to the video you will see shortly of the day we spent with Tom E at Sheffield Comic Con event!

What a day this was. I think going in I thought I had an idea of what to expect, but it turned out to be rather different and a lot more intense than I was expecting! Perhaps I was mindfucking myself trying to think about what might happen and therefore creating an expectation of it, even unintentionally. It just all meant that everything that did happen took me by surprise and swept me up even more completely. It was a great day for so many reasons, both in terms of the event itself and from your ongoing effects on me. It was fantastic to spend time with you and CJ, and what you made me feel was certainly some of the most intense things I’ve ever experienced.

When I woke up and was starting to get everything together, I was already pretty excited for everything to come. As I laid out my outfit ready it struck me that it would be a departure from other events as nothing would happen when I started putting it on. At least, nothing as far as I was aware. I think now it’s probably safe to say that I definitely was mindfucking myself, getting caught up in all the what ifs and maybes and about this and that. So nothing did happen as I started putting on the various parts of the outfit, and this in turn made me mindfuck myself a bit more. It was strange, I was wondering about what would happen and mindfucking myself, but at the same time almost becoming more sure that I knew a bit more about how the day would play out. I guess in a way it made me think that as one thing I had expected hadn’t taken place, then it was more likely that other things would. If that makes sense!

So the day got started properly when you and CJ arrived and we met outside. These things were all floating around in the back of my mind when me and CJ went back up to the room and did the first bit of filming, and as we set off towards Magna. Much the same as any other day when we’re conversing via text, the thought that at any moment you could drop a trigger and sweep me up in a torrent of pleasure was always there. It’s a stimulating thought, that from one second to the next you could exert your influence over me and have me exactly where you want me, that I would be feeling exactly what you wanted me to feel…even doing exactly what you wanted me to. Even typing this out now and casting my mind back to it is affecting. It was there but I wasn’t dwelling on it exclusively; but obviously such an effect runs much more deeply into my subconscious from all the work we’ve done together. I was loving being with you both in a social setting as well, as I think of you as very dear friends. Once we got there, I started thinking of it more; given that you were no longer driving and filming had started again, a trigger could have been dropped at any point as far as I knew. To be honest, I was revelling in all of it; being with you both, the excitement, the nervous butterflies. I was almost certainly mindfucking myself, and it did occur to me at one point that you could have already implanted something that would take effect at any moment. Wow.

These feelings persisted as we went into the main hall and started walking around. I don’t know if any of this was visible on my face or in my demeanour as we went on, but you know me so well you doubtless had a good idea of how I was feeling anyway. I imagine that you also had everything that was to come all planned out while I was there blissfully unaware! I so love the atmosphere of a con, being in and amongst it all, seeing all the sights, meeting likeminded people. This was all enriched by your presence, having you there to share it and take part in it as well. The more we went on the more this became my focus; thoughts of whether or not your next word could be a trigger were pushed away and I was enjoying everything that we were doing. It was always there, but I was enjoying myself and I also realised that whatever might happen would happen when you wanted it to, and it wouldn’t be down to me. This is of course exactly what happened when we went into the food hall.

As we queued to get our food I wasn’t thinking of triggers or anything like that anymore, was just enjoying your company. I suppose I hadn’t even thought of the watch as the main thing you would use either, was thinking more that you would use the boom trigger or something similar. Little did I know! Although I should have known because there is a history of you using that on me in public from when we went to the park together. When I was sat across from you with CJ filming us and I saw you reaching into your pocket…that’s when it hit me. My stomach lurched with those butterflies again as your hand came out of your pocket, clearly holding the watch now. I couldn’t see it yet, but I knew what was about to happen. Or did I? Maybe you were just mindfucking me again, teasing me. I was excited about what you might do, what I might feel, and the fact that it would all be happening in such a public setting. This was thrilling. I can’t quite put my finger on why even now; I think something to do with the knowledge that your words and triggers are so deeply engrained in me that they will take effect on me no matter what. No matter what. It’s a fact that what you want will take place. I find this particularly stimulating.

When you raised the watch up for me to see, I was instantly captivated. Everything else that was around me melted away and my only focus was you and that watch. It held me so completely. The fact we were in public didn’t matter, didn’t even come to mind. I was just swept away. As we’ve often talked about when we do our sessions, you really could just have that watch on screen for the whole hour and it would still be a delightful and fulfilling session; and that’s all because of the feelings that it produces. Seeing it, and that instant familiar feeling of becoming deeply hypnotized is just so wonderful. Going to those ever-deeper depths as long as I keep watching, unable to look away. Knowing that while I am in that state you can get me to do pretty much anything is exciting and arousing as well. Of course, these are only my thoughts looking on it now…at the time none of this was in my mind as I was just blank as you held me there. I followed it as you put it onto the table, unaware of everything else that was going on around me in that moment. The effect was just as potent as it is when I’m in private and you use it. That is a thrilling thought. When you spoke and told me I could continue eating, I sort of became aware again that I was still holding my sandwich…I hadn’t been at first while looking at the watch. My attention sort of became divided a little from here, I had something to do but my focus was still on the watch sitting right in front of me on the table. I ate and finished my sandwich, but it felt somewhat dreamy, like I was going through the motions, if that makes sense? Like that feeling in the morning when you awaken and need to sort of acclimatise to everything as you come round.

I felt wonderful being held there in the palm of your hand effectively. When you spoke and clapped to make me focus it helped bring me back to reality, like light cutting through fog. I felt more aware again, more in touch with everything that was going on around me though I was still focused on you. I felt pretty gooey from that extended period being entranced by the watch, the mere feeling of being hypnotised alone gives me such pleasure. I think this is why when you started triggering me soon after this, I felt everything particularly keenly; it was that familiar sort of contrast between the depth of trance making the surges of pleasure that much higher and more powerful. When you used the erotic trigger it washed over me like a wave, making me tingle in pleasure. The boom trigger hit me hard as it always does, a short blast but particularly intense. That trigger has such force behind it I don’t think I could ever prepare even if I knew it was coming. You had me right where you wanted me by this point (not that you don’t always), and through the haze of pleasure I also loved how easily you were able to play with me. This was shown when you used the rocket trigger, first giving that little aside to the camera about it, and it just took me so completely and utterly. Everything was heightened by the fact that you were right there in front of me; your presence made it all so much stronger. Irresistible. Being able to look across the table at you, to look into your eyes, hear your voice so close, just increased our connection even more and these effects were subsequently more potent than they normally are.

The pleasure of rocket drove me out of my seat as it flooded through me. I don’t know how it must have looked either to you or to anybody else nearby, but that wasn’t on my mind in that precise moment. The residual effects of everything you’d already done left me feeling more gooey, bringing with it that familiar afterglow. Even though it was all so public I felt totally safe and secure with you there guiding me and playing with it. I love that feeling. Although you eased up on the triggers I was still dwelling in that afterglow, and of course your last suggestion that I would HFO as soon as we walked back though the main door made me flutter even more. As we finished our food and made our way outside it was there like a constant pleasurable itch at the back of my mind; I knew it was coming, I knew that it was definitely going to happen. The fact that it was inevitable, and I knew exactly what would happen and when was an exciting thought in and of itself. The countdown was on and there was no stopping it, and I loved it. The fresh air outside helped clear my head from all the rushes of pleasure before, but this thought was constant. Part of this was wondering how I’d handle it in a standing position, as I’m usually sat or laid when you trigger me, and you continue to make your effects so powerful on me that I wasn’t quite sure how I’d manage. As it turned out it wasn’t too bad; the pleasure was strong, but I never felt in danger of actually toppling over. It certainly made me stumble though! I supported myself on the barriers as we walked back in, keeping moving and trying to compose myself as much as possible. I don’t know if you actually saw this taking place as you were walking ahead of me, but I’m certain you were very secure in the knowledge that what you had implanted was taking place.

As we started another tour around the main hall I felt more ‘charged’ from everything that we’d just done. Not just in terms of the physical sensations, but from the enjoyment of the day as well. I perhaps don’t state enough just how positive all these triggers and effects that you use on me make me feel…and again, I don’t just mean in terms of the physical sensations. That is absolutely wonderful, sublime even, but no matter what the intensity or manner of the physical sensations, there always comes as well a pronounced feeling of positivity and joy. I’m not just left feeling pleasured from the physical effects, but also happy and enriched. I don’t think I’m describing it too well, but hopefully you take my meaning. It goes beyond the physical pleasurable sensations is what I’m saying. This is because you’ve had such a powerfully positive effect on my life and continue to empower me with everything you do. It’s divine, and I thank you so much for it. So this is how I was feeling as we walked around; when we took a few pictures together where you had me entranced by the watch again it was such a heady feeling, bringing in both those aspects of pleasure and enjoyment I was just talking about. The effect that pocket watch has on me is so profound, so deeply hypnotic. It was thrilling to think about not just this effect but how the pictures would turn out as well. I can’t wait to see them!

What happened next is quite possibly the most intense thing you’ve ever made me experience. I hope I can do it justice as I try to describe it, though I suspect you know the score very well both from observing me on the day and how well you know me in general! I also have no idea if you had planned this or if it something that came to you in the spur of the moment. I guess that doesn’t matter really, the effect was certainly the same! It happened fairly quickly too which caught me by surprise, and you’d already done a very good job of opening me up with everything that had already happened. When you suggested I would experience orgasmic pleasure every time you took a step, I was completely flooded by the most intense sensations. Every click of your heels on the ground brought with it another rush…and another and another and another. Each wave individually might not have been the absolute most powerful rush ever, but they were still strong. And of course it was the speed and how quickly they came along with each step you took, each building and building on the one before, as well as everything that had happened prior. Within moments I felt the effects throughout my body, emanating outwards from my core. There was no resting either as you continued to walk, and it continued to happen; bubbles of pleasure just bursting everywhere with each step. I felt overwhelmed, swept up in pleasure. It felt so incredible but also so intense. No letting up, no waiting for any afterglow, just step after step. I started to feel somewhat wobbly and had to try my best to centre myself, weathering what was happening. But oh my god it was so delightful.

What really pushed me over the edge was when you did that little tap dance…all those steps in rapid succession. An explosion of pleasure and the most striking sensations. Orgasmic pleasure did not just wash over me but through me, it hit me hard. By this point even individually they had become very powerful and just continued to snowball and grow more intense. Each one built on the last and the rush became a veritable torrent of pleasure. My memory of exactly how things played out around that point isn’t precise; I think that’s when I told you I had to tap out? I certainly felt that this had happened internally somewhat because everything ‘settled’ a bit from that point onwards. When I had to take that break leaning against the small railing, I was taking deep breaths to bring myself back as much as I could. But wow. Just wow. I felt amazing. Had these feelings happened in a private setting I’m not sure what would have happened! The sensations had ravaged me, and it felt wonderful. You had played with me, and it felt wonderful. Every time you glanced back at me I could feel the glee just radiating off you, and I loved that as much as everything else. In contrast to what I said before, I’m not quite sure how I stayed upright during that! But I loved it in every way, and it made me feel phenomenal. Thank you, Goddess.

But of course, things did not end with that. While all this had been going on I had been semi-aware of the fact I was completely out in the open, at least at the beginning. I don’t know if I had been sort of subconsciously trying to weather or ‘stifle’ what I was feeling for that reason, but regardless once the sensations abated I felt nice and loose as though I had been tensing my muscles and then let them go. The pleasure I had not been like the full throes of an HFO exactly, but more constantly being bombarded with that feeling of being brought to the edge…the very apex of an orgasm again and again as opposed to release after release. Whatever it was, it was strong! Perhaps this is what influenced your decision on what was come to next when we went back inside? It’s not for me to know really, Goddess…I’m simply curious. So after all of that, things calmed down significantly; your steps did not make the pleasure surge through me anymore, but equally they seemed to keep it at the level it was at, making sure it didn’t drop…like keeping a car running. I think I was lulled into a false sense of security somewhat as after that I wasn’t expecting you to do anything else. I was wrong!

As we walked along the corridor and you got your phone out, it was a similar moment as had happened with the watch earlier…I realised what might be about to happen but it all just swept me away. Having barely recovered from everything that had happened outside, when you hit me with the boom trigger again I felt the full force of it. Even though I’d had a bit of recovery time, it still compounded with everything that I was feeling. I keep using the word intense to describe it, but it is very apt. The release surged through me in that explosion of pleasure that I was so familiar with. With everything you’d done before it was difficult to try and weather it at all at this stage. And then…when you hit me with all those booms one after the other it was so fierce and burning. Like I said before, this trigger is a short, sharp burst of intense and exquisite pleasure…and when multiple ones are used in quick succession it really hits me hard. It was overwhelming and I had to rest myself against the wall while it was all flooding through me. I was wracked with pleasure, those booms going off one after the other keeping me in that heightened state of arousal. As had been the case all day, you had me exactly where you wanted me. While this was happening, I was lost in it, caught in that rushing river. Leaning against the wall steadied me a little, I’ve no idea how it must have looked to everyone passing! The pleasure was amazing and seeped through me completely, and the afterglow was strong. Once it was all over I felt quite spaced out.

And so the rest of the time we were there I was sort of drifting along in the after effects of these feelings. As we wandered I was trying to ruminate on everything that had happened but really just let myself be more in the moment. I’ve had plenty of time to do that since though, Goddess. I hope I’ve been able to articulate everything well enough and that it all made sense. It’s safe to say that I wasn’t quite prepared for exactly what would happen, and indeed you told me that’s what happens if you want to play. God, I love that. The physical sensations and experiences are sublime…and then there’s that feeling of being so under your influence that you can make all these things happen so effortlessly. So completely, whenever you want. It was a wonderful day on all levels; the fun we had, spending time together, the connection we share and the journey we continue to make. I absolutely loved seeing you both. You are very dear friends. And I hope that I made you proud as well. Thank you for a wonderful day, my Goddess!