Diary of a Mind Fucked Footboy Part 36 (Patreon)
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16/04/2021
Having read what I had described about the experience in the session when she logged in next, Mistress sent me a message saying that it had been noted. Again, one single word that has such a strong and lasting effect. It means that she’s taken it on board, it is knowledge that she now has that can be used when and as she sees fit. The thought even now makes me flutter a little.
Later on in the early afternoon Mistress dropped an erotic trigger to me, and the familiar wave of tingly pleasure made its way over me. The effect just gets me straight away, and it remains as beautiful as ever. This prompted a short discussion about the upcoming workshop tomorrow, in which Mistress made it very clear that I would need to keep my energy levels up and I would most certainly be being demonstrated on. Wow…I absolutely can’t wait. I love when she uses me for her demonstrations; not knowing what she is going to do, or when it will come, is exciting and stimulating…and that’s before even considering the effects of the words and triggers themselves. I’m so thrilled by how she plays with me, how she knows precisely what make me tick, and gleefully uses it. Each and every time. Constantly. How I love it.
17/04/2021
Workshop day! Very excited for it. They’re always great fun, incredibly so; not just because of Mistress using me for her various demonstrations, but the chance to connect with the community and hear the contributions from different folks as well. Discussing, sharing experiences, learning about new things and new aspects of this thing we all love so much. I love it and I’m sure they will continue to grow and expand as time goes on.
I was excited for it as the day went on, it wasn’t far from my thoughts. The day was mostly uneventful really but restful and enjoyable nevertheless, my mind was ticking over with what mind happen. Mistress’ words form the day before about needing to keep my energy levels up and how I would certainly be demonstrated on kept coming back to me as well, heightening the excitement. Not just the pleasurable sensations that always come about from her effects but the nature of it being on display in that sort of forum as well; knowing that these various triggers are so engrained, such a part of me, that they will take hold so completely no matter what, even in a more public setting. This is certainly a new development for me since Mistress and I started our journey as there was a time I wouldn’t have entertained something like that at all. But she has given me so much confidence, worked with me so much and helped me to improve and develop that I embrace it now. So thankful to her for all she has done.
It was certainly a very enjoyable workshop. There were new members as well as old, a great coming together of the community. I love how everyone has such love for Mistress’ work and how appreciative they are. Genuine passion goes into all of it and it’s why she deserves to be supported always. New members meant new questions, new enquiries and new explanations on various topics and it was great to sit and soak it all in as well as benefit from the knowledge. Hearing the various experiences that people have, and their own take on it, is so beneficial because I think it helps to develop a deeper understanding of what’s going on for yourself. Hypnosis is a very personal experience for sure, and we each experience it in different ways, but hearing how something effected one person gives a certain validation…even if the experience is different it just reinforces the notion that there are so many branches to it and each one is just as strong. Writing that down now I hope it makes sense. Whatever the experience is though it is so special and so enjoyable, and something I cherish very much.
The effects of it were certainly on display over the course of the workshop as well…it was focusing on HFO, after all! It was incredible, and it was most assuredly beneficial for me to keep my energy levels up! Even with a single word Mistress can create such amazing effects in me; they are so powerful and become more so each time they are used and each time we have a session together. Their strength and grip on me just increases, and I love it so much. The pleasure takes hold of me instantly and so completely, whether it be the bliss of the scent trigger, the erotic tingles or the intense need to release. Being held on the edge is such a potent feeling; the initial spike of pleasure that comes with a release, except it doesn’t stop, I can’t get past that feeling and move on to release without permission. I feel it all over, it permeates me. Often I start to shake as I’m caught in its thrall, and I think Mistress very much enjoys seeing this happen to me…and it amuses her when it happens in front of everyone as well. As well as the pleasure flooding me, there’s a sort of dilemma that hits me when it happens in public – when I’m triggered and held on the edge it brings with it the need to ask for my permission to release, and Mistress will grant it or tease me a little as she sees fit. But in public, if she triggers me and is speaking, answering a question or explaining something to everyone, I don’t ask for that release because I don’t want to interrupt her while she’s in the flow of it. I imagine she knows this perfectly well; even if she doesn’t trigger me directly, she chooses her words very carefully and knows exactly the effect they will have as well as how I will react. I love that she knows me so well, knows how all these things will play out down to the last detail.
But of course sometimes she does trigger me directly. She uses her hypnotic voice to which I am so well attuned now and says one of those magical words that she has implanted in my mind to create extraordinary and pleasurable effects. Pleasurable sensations only. She triggered me throughout the course of the workshop and it was incredible. She uses me to demonstrate her point, to emphasize something that she might be speaking about…how wonderful that is. The pleasure was strong as it always is, and of course as she uses these triggers and creates these effects they snowball and gather intensity as they are uses in succession. I’m sure this is something that she is completely aware of as well…so often I tell her this sort of thing and she responds that she already knows. She knows me inside and out and has me trained very well indeed. Perhaps I am mindfucking myself somewhat as I dwell on these things, but that’s the way we both like it. My ruminations layer on top of themselves and so when Mistress creates an effect or implants a new trigger I’m just so open and willing to let her in.
As the workshop wrapped up I felt incredible…everything that had happened was great and I felt so positive and fulfilled, still feeling the effects as well as feeding off the enjoyable memories. These feelings stayed with me for the rest of the evening; even as my body calmed down from the intense pleasure that I had experienced, the afterglow stayed with me enveloping me in its golden haze. I can’t quite express enough how lovely that is, how the effects continue to take their course even after the ‘event’ has concluded. It is such a positive and empowering effect and I am so thankful for Mistress for granting it to me.
We didn’t end up speaking that much more for the rest of the day as it turned out; we talked a little about HFO audios and their style and structure. I think she was mainly looking for ideas or inspiration on how to go about doing the upcoming work. But still, what a question! When there is a countdown it builds up anticipation and makes the urge stronger without being triggered per se, if that makes sense...but the suddenness of just being told to release is exciting too. I suppose it all comes from the not knowing.
The day had not quite finished there though. Later on the evening the finished foot massage video was released complete with music and narration! I can only say wow. Just wow. It was absolutely phenomenal, beautiful, sublime and sensual. It was a thoroughly pleasurable experience to watch it on many levels, first and foremost because Mistress was dressed in red in it. So before anything had even taken place, seeing that brought to me an onrush of intense pleasure and an innate need for release. I felt both the pleasure and the need in every fibre, and I think it was even stronger this time given that firstly I knew what would take place in the video and that Mistress was not around to give me the release. And so the pleasure was left with me, strong and insistent, shaking around inside me and keeping me on the edge. The video started properly, and it was so well done with the music and the way it was shot, switching to a closeup of Mistress’ beautiful feet as her first words drifted in so pleasantly. They had used the first part of the narration I wrote to open it as well, and that was another level of joy from it knowing that I had contributed to it in some small way. The closeup shot gave way to a wider view of CJ starting his work massaging Mistress’ feet, and it was so beautiful. I’m not sure how else to describe it, but it was so well done…certainly very intimate and delicate and sensual, all things that appeal to me so much. These things represent how I feel about feet and the fetish really and it was personified in this video. A delightful experience to watch. Even if the red trigger had not been effecting me in that moment I would certainly have felt incredibly positive from watching it all unfold; not just because it is something that appeals to me but that it represents enjoyment and pleasure for Mistress and CJ too. That is wonderful and so so important. The rest of the narration and Mistress’ beautiful voice just added to what a sensual and enjoyable watch it was as well; even though I was flooded with pleasure from the red trigger, I was still able to take time and appreciate all these things and how well it was done.
The ending was beautiful as well; Mistress curling up to sleep with the most soft and gentle whispers accompanying this in the narration. I loved it. It was part of the ‘Anunna’s Treats’ range and it was most certainly a treat to watch! Gorgeous, sensual pleasure. I know I keep using that word and others but I can’t quite think of how else to describe it. Divine? These things are how I feel about it. The layers of joy and positivity and pleasure from watching it were profound; as well as the things I’ve already mentioned, it all stemmed from the effects that Mistress and her feet have on me. Just seeing them has an impact on me, and then for it to be in that sort of situation, wishing and ruminating on how what I’m seeing must feel…incredible. So yes all in all it was a delightful end to the evening and a fantastic video! I went to sleep with the pleasure still bristling from the trigger but the sublime nature of what I’d been watching and soothing effects of Mistress’ feet anyway meant I had no trouble getting to sleep.