Diary of a Mind Fucked Footboy Part 32 (Patreon)

07/04/2021

Very positive and enjoyable start to the day today. Last night I had ended up posting a picture of myself in one of my cosplays, and there was a very kind comment on it, which was lovely! Folks are always so supportive, and I never fail to be touched and humbled when such a comment is made. That wasn’t the end of it though – in my response to this comment I referred to how I might look very innocent in it, something I didn’t think anything further on…until Mistress responded. She agreed that I did look very innocent, and also very suggestible, and that someone could easily come along and take advantage of that. this took me completely by surprise and it made me feel very gooey very quickly. The comment alone had an effect on me, but it brought with it ideas (possibly a mini mindfuck) of whether or not it was just a comment or if something else was going to happen. Was she going to trigger me, or had she just done it to tease me and make me melt? Either way it got me completely. I loved it.

She knew exactly the effect it had on me of course…she knows exactly how to push my buttons and what makes me tick completely. I love being so open and laid bare to her like that. it’s incredible. She posted the next instalment of the diary on Patreon, and like before it had the picture of her in red accompanying it, which affected me immediately. The image of my Mistress in red, her foot reaching out the camera as though it was reaching out to my face…these things are an arousing tonic of a very potent kind. When I asked for permission it wasn’t given, and in fact she instructed that I would remain on the edge until further instructions. I was there for sure, needing that release. It lasted about half an hour in total – she eventually instructed that I would have a very powerful and wet orgasm when I released. This made me more aroused and eager; the ‘default setting’ for the releases she gives me are dry orgasms, quite like when I listen to the HFO track, but she can and often does guide me towards a wet orgasm, particularly if she has allowed the sensations to build up first. It was intense and powerful…supremely pleasurable. It flooded me with orgasmic bliss, so much so that I was a little bit wobbly as I got changed for work a short time afterwards. And as I’ve talked about before, the effect of these little play session works to leave me quite open to what Mistress says, even more so than normal, and so she is able to make suggestions that sink in. She instructed that this positive boost would stay with me through my shift, sort of one long afterglow. And I knew it would. This would be my reality and would stay that way until she told me otherwise.

Just before I left for work she used me as her footstool – just a single message telling me so but one that was so impactful and pleasurable. That never fails to melt me so utterly, and she knows it. This only amplified the positive and boosted feelings that she had given me from the orgasm before…I was glowing! This continued when she took the opportunity to mindfuck me a little just as I was going down to start my shift – it’s something she can do so easily now and in so many various ways. I’m so open to them and I love it. They can be subtle or acute. She let me know how tempted she was to do something to me, something very specific, but of course didn’t say what…and in the end decided not to go through with it. My mind started wandering, racing even with all the possibilities of what this could be…I was so intrigued, but I didn’t ask what it was as I knew she would never say, and that’s how we both like it. Through one thing and another we didn’t end up chatting much for the rest of the day, but she did ask me to send her the information on what I would be working around the time of our session. The mindfuck continued with this, bringing up as it often has before ideas and ponderances about exactly what she has planned, how she will use the information, and everything else that might come of it. God I love it!

It was a nice night in terms of chatting with all the folks on Discord, and I was touched that there were more kind comments about the diary entries, someone even saying that would be encouraging to others. How wonderful that is! I never expected anything like that when writing them but if that is the effect that are having, or could even potentially have, then I’m overjoyed.

Very late on I watched a video that Mistress had posted regarding her videos on YouTube. It was just a short update video, but it nevertheless contained some words that ended up having a significant impact on me. The words erotic and orgasm were in there…not as triggers per se, but they still affected me. As it was so late I knew Mistress would not be around, so I didn’t message her asking for permission, I just had to feel that pleasure and let it wash over me and handle those urges until I went to sleep myself. She has often told me to be careful watching things or looking at images when she is not around, but I didn’t really see it coming from a video of that kind! The pleasure and orgasmic sensations flooded me as they always do, although they calmed down into the pure need and urge that always follows. It was so pleasurable and so wonderful…Mistress’ influence on me is so complete and total, these triggers and everything else are a part of me now and their effects will always be felt no matter what. I adore that.

09/04/2021

Today has been a long day at work which hasn’t allowed me very much time online, but even in that small window Mistress has certainly made her presence felt and affected me deeply and profoundly.

I started work at 11am and so had a bit of time in the morning to look in on Discord and chat with a few folks. During the course of the chat Mistress caught me off guard with a comment she made – a subtle but still clear reference to the fact that she can easily get me to do anything she wants, whenever she wants me to do it. It’s true, she absolutely can. I wasn’t expecting this, and it took me a moment to fully process it; I understood the meaning of it all certainly, but I had to process just how it made me feel. Gooey. This sort of comment always affects me deeply, it just flicks a little switch inside me, bringing to the surface all those pleasurable sensations and submissive feelings (and memories) that are part of our dynamic. That she said it in the public chat also got me. There was no more to the exchange than that, but it still gave me a lovely little rush to feel her effect on me in this way.

After this a fair portion of the day passed with no more interactions, and I wasn’t really able to keep my eye on the chat that much either. It was pretty busy so I didn’t have all that much chance to stop and think about everything, but of course the effects and gifts that Mistress has given me can work on a deeper level than that. Even with something like the face mask I wear, into which she has imbued some of the effects that her feet have, will work on me regardless and help to keep me safe even if I am not actively considering them. But something happened later on in my shift that I had no choice but to actively consider.

At around 4pm Mistress sent me a message asking me to hold the pocket watch I now carry around with me, but I didn’t see it until I sat down for my break around half an hour later. I took it as soon as I saw the message, and it immediately had its wonderful effect on me…pleasurable and stimulating, making me feel good and making me feel gooey. It’s so amazing to feel it come on so quickly and constantly resonating through me as long as my hand is closed around the watch. I was able to be discreet given the surroundings I was in, my hand around the watch and sat at the back of the room as the feelings washed over me. Luckily, there was only one other person in the room with me, I can’t imagine how it would have gone had it been full! Mistress dropped an erotic trigger which only made the sensations I was already feeling even more keen, with that wave of pleasure flowing over me in conjunction with the internal pulses and gooey feelings caused by holding the watch. And then it became far more intense…Mistress dropped a further three erotic triggers one after the other, followed by the orgasm trigger, which she spelled out letter by letter while I was caught in the midst of the sensations she already had me feeling. As well as the physical pleasure, the anticipation as each letter appeared was palpable, probably acting as a way to further stimulate that pleasure and make me feel it even more intensely. When the word was complete the powerful rush came as it always does, and I had to contain myself as best I could as I was brought right to the edge and left needing to release so powerfully.

Mistress gave me permission to release at 5pm (twelve minutes away), but also told me how it would be so intense, and that in the build up to it I would experience a mini orgasm as it came closer. The use of the trigger word caused another powerful rush of pleasure to wash over me, and I was sat there near quivering with pleasure, completely under Mistress’ influence in that moment. As she has often said, she can make me feel whatever she wants whenever she wants, and this was certainly proof of that. It felt so utterly incredible. She also had correctly guessed that I was at work but had gone forward with everything anyway when I responded to her…but I love it when she plays with me while I’m in public like that. The thrill and excitement added to the physical sensations that she creates in me is just something else. The mini ones kept coming, like a small bolt of thunder. I was trying and failing not to quiver...I must have looked like I did when Mistress triggered me in the workshop. It continued to grow and build; I had to stifle myself with my mask and hands as I was shaking a bit when the release came, aided by the addition of a few more triggers from Mistress just to really hammer it home in those final moments. It was such a strong release, a flood of pleasure. At that moment I wasn’t thinking about the setting I was in but just that incredible pleasure I was feeling right then. I don’t know if my reaction was tempered by the fact that I was somewhere more public, I wasn’t aware of really trying to hold anything back all that much, but that can be intense in its own way when trying to contain those feelings that are pounding at me so insistently and wonderfully.

I managed to walk out of the room okay after the feelings had subsided a bit, and after I sat down at the desk the afterglow just washed over me. It was so lovely. I must really have been glowing! it stayed with me for the rest of the shift, I just felt so incredibly happy and positively. Tingling. Like I said before it isn’t just the physical sensations, it’s the knowledge of how easily Mistress can affect me like that…wherever and whenever she chooses to. It will happen, the effects are undeniable. And I love it. To be so completely in the palm of her hand is exciting, stimulating and delightful. We’ve come very far together on our journey and every day I’m thankful for the time and effort she invests in it, in me. I would never have thought such things were possible, but now I know that they are I am relishing it so completely.