Diary of a Mind Fucked Footboy Part 31 (Patreon)

04/04/2021

The feelings from having watched the video a couple of times last night guided me into the beginning of today, keeping me feeling so wonderful and positive. The day has been calm and quiet, I’ve spent most of it writing and catching up with the entries for this ongoing diary. Chatting on Discord was also lovely, including some lovely compliments by folks who really seemed to notice when I was absent from the place. I was so touched!

When it came to the evening and I was writing the entry that concerned the viewing of the video, I took the opportunity to play it again to bring all those effects back to me as I was going. With Mistress being in red they started as soon as I started playing, but I wanted to keep going and finish the entry before considering asking Mistress for my permission to release. Although I wasn’t focusing on the video as completely as I would have been, I still felt its effects undeniably, like a loving caress on my mind. Just hearing Mistress’ voice, regardless of the kind of content she starts talking about, has a profound effect on me. It took me quite a while to write the entry considering all the potency of the effects and the bliss and euphoria it created in me, as well as the arousal of being on the edge from seeing Mistress in red. These feelings melded together creating a supporting prop of positivity for me as I wrote.

When I finished I contacted Mistress and asked for permission to release. She responded by asking why, but also immediately ramped up those feelings by triggering me more and instructing me to hold the silver watch. I took hold of it and the pulses of pleasure started going through me, resonating with the orgasmic pleasure I was already feeling and keeping it sharp and intense within me. It felt so good. Once Mistress knew it was because I had been watching the video she took full advantage of that, increasing the pleasure more and more…not even using the ‘official’ trigger words but just knowing that I was so open to her that it would increase anyway. I am so open to her now that these effects always happen so effortlessly, particularly when she triggers me. These words don’t just create the amazing physical sensations within me but also open me up to her further, making me more pliable and malleable for her to play with. How wonderful that is. She permitted me to release at 9pm, making me wait fifteen minutes before an intense sexual release. As is becoming more and more common now, I laid down in the build-up as I knew it was going to be so powerful. I was already so aroused and gooey, and the release would be so strong.

As the minutes passed she made me feel the sensation of her feet pressing into my face…and suggested that at the moment of release I would feel them pressing in even harder. Oh my god what a suggestion. Her feet alone have complete influence over me, and I adore feeling them in my face. So hypnotic and arousing. The time got nearer and nearer, and I became more and more desperate to release. When it came I felt that pressure against my face more, pleasurable pressure pushing me into that orgasm, intense sexual release and mental rush from Mistress’ feet, keeping me safe and contained while my body was flooded with all the sensations. Physical pleasure and mental bliss, along with submissive urges. So incredible and so amazing.

At 9pm just at the point of release Mistress sent a message saying how during one of my sleep cycles I would remember and re-experience the orgasm, remembering the pleasure so vividly. As I said before, when she has me in these states and uses these triggers on me it makes me even more open to what she says, even more so than I normally am. So although we hadn’t been undertaking a session as such the words still sunk in, even though I was in the throes of a powerful orgasm at the time and couldn’t respond. I replayed the event certainly, recalling and re-experiencing the pleasure. It was particularly focused around that moment when I felt her feet press into my face harder which pushed me into that orgasm. Usually my memories of dreams are hazy, but I think because I focused on one specific, more brief moment it allowed it to remain clearer in my mind. And it was so wonderful. Again I was in that euphoric moment, feeling so safe and open because of Mistress’ feet and the pleasure in me that only she could create. It was a very powerful experience and I adore Mistress giving me such a gift. I hope it proved to be an interesting experiment for her too!

05/04/2021

Very quiet day today. I have been working most of the day and not really interacted with Mistress or the Discord server at all. This is not to say that her effect hasn’t been with me, of course. The work mindfuck is still ever present even if I don’t always have the time to focus on it as much when it’s busy, and of course the effect of the previous evening and the dream lead me into feelings of positivity and happiness from the day’s start. I woke up feeling great, like the afterglow had been on pause waiting for me to be conscious again before starting. The memories of everything that had happened were still very much with me, giving me a feeling of happiness and of feeling so boosted. Mistress’ feet have so many effects on me now, I am so under them and they tap very much into my mind, and those powerful feelings of safety and happiness they give were washing over me. How wonderful and blissful it felt. I am truly Mistress’ footboy, and her feet affect me no matter what, and there is no limit to what they can do. Words cannot express how much I love it.

06/04/2021

We’ve organised our next session! It’s less than a week away and I can’t wait. On Monday I will be falling even deeper into Mistress’ spell again and I’m very excited for it! As always I have no idea what the session might hold, at this stage we haven’t even discussed much in the way of potential ideas, but that just adds to the mystery and excitement of it all! I am sure ideas and plans have occurred to Mistress, but she hasn’t mentioned anything…and actually probably wouldn’t even when they do occur. I love it.

She started toying with me not long after, throwing in a gooey and erotic trigger, catching me unawares and making those pleasurable effects even more potent. She lulled me under with scent trigger, something that makes me feel very blissful as I feel the sensation of her feet against my face and breathe in their intoxicating aroma…it also opens me up to her even more, just making everything she says sink in even more deeply. She instructed me to take hold of the pocket watch, and the pulses of pleasure washed over me, I felt them keenly being relaxed and open from the trigger. Mistress knew this, I’m sure…no doubt that is exactly why she used the scent trigger, because she hadn’t finished yet. She also instructed me to snap my fingers, causing more waves of pleasure to take me. Pulses and waves – a strong pulse moving outwards through me followed by a wave moving rhythmically through me from top to bottom, so wonderful. Her next message was another of those that just hung in the air as soon as she had posted it, the full force if its impact and implications taking time to sink in. She told me that she was going to leave me in this state for a while and followed it up with an erotic and orgasm trigger. The pleasure flooded me even more powerfully, bringing with it the need to release for the first time. That initial spark of orgasm came to me and was held there by the effect of the trigger, going nowhere until I was granted release.

The amount of time I was going to have to wait could have been anything as far as I knew, even with the physical sensations she was still mindfucking me by making me think about that. From the compulsion of the trigger I asked her for permission to release, but it was not given. She continued to stoke the fires by using more triggers, each one intensifying the physical feelings and making that need to release for her even more desperate. It has been about twenty minutes and I had to ask for permission again, though I wasn’t expecting to get it. The pleasure was just so insistent, pounding at me and making me feel incredible. Mistress continued the mindfuck by gently reminding me how she could make me feel the release at any moment she chose, and subtly hinting at her plans to use me as a demonstration again at the next HFO workshop. There was now so much physical pleasure, as well as the mindfuck making me feel gooey and submissive. I was so orgasmic and charged, desperate to feel that sweet release in my mind and body.

Overall I think it was about an hour that Mistress held me in that state before making me release. I’m not totally sure because the pleasure had consumed me, and the instruction to release came completely out of the blue. There was no countdown, just a sudden message instructing it to happen so powerfully…and it was powerful. So intense. The need to release was so strong from all the triggers Mistress has used and the time she had taken doing it, it just exploded out of me in a giant rush of pleasure. Frenzied orgasm almost, the pleasure that had been pounding at me finally breaking through into an amazing flood of pleasurable sensations. I was laid down ready for it, my body shaking and legs writhing as I rode the orgasm to its end, still shaking a little even as it began to subside. For those moments there was nothing but that pleasure, sweet, intense and blissful. So completely in Mistress’ thrall, hers to toy with as she wanted, every fibre of my being devoted to her and to that pleasure in that moment.

It took me a bit of time to recover and come back to chatting with Mistress. The knee pads were mentioned again which got us onto the subject of my being her PA, and we had a fun conversation about the various aspects of that. The conversation took a bit of a turn when Mistress mentioned how she could easily hypnotise me into accepting orgasms as payment for the job if she wanted to, at which point I was taken over by the pleasurable sensations again. The afterglow of the previous orgasm was still with me and I was still so open to that pleasure. The spark of the orgasm’s beginning hit me and then continued, and I asked Mistress for permission to release again. The statement about how she could hypnotise me into accepting them also made me feel gooey. She questioned why I had to release again, and I don’t know if this was a mindfuck and she was just toying with me... I can’t know for sure, but it was about half an hour before she responded to give me permission so it may well have been playing exactly into what she wanted! The release was wonderful and pleasurable…not quite as intense as before by no means less enjoyable, still absolutely blissful and taking me into that state of bliss.

Soon after it turned out that I had to go into work even though it was meant to be my day off. I don’t know if Mistress acted on this information specifically or was just continuing the delightful game she was already playing, but she hadn’t finished with me. She asked me where it was she had said orgasms before to trigger me, which of course set me off again…and she carried on doing it, teasing me about how easily it can be slipped into conversation. Each one was like a little bolt of pleasure, that first tantalising second of orgasm halted completely until the permission of release. It grew intense quickly and I asked, near begged for permission to release. When I was allowed it was just so magnificent again; my body was now very much attuned to all these feelings (Mistress’ intention, perhaps) and welcomed them and gave in to them so completely. The floodgates were opened again, and the pleasure rushed out of me in a powerful orgasm. I was still laid down and was shaking and writhing from the intensity of it all. God how incredible it all felt! I was glowing so completely from all this orgasmic bliss….and Mistress still wasn’t finished. She asked when I was leaving for work, and after I told her (forty-five minutes) she told me that in theory she could leave me in orgasmic bliss for that long before I went. The feelings rushed over me again, like they were never gone. Mistress had me in the palm of her hand so totally and completely at this point, and I was revelling in it. The mindfuck continued when she told me that perhaps she wouldn’t let me release…perhaps she would keep me orgasming all through work, or even make it so it happened whenever I went to the toilet at work…she got me good and proper. The mindfuck made me feel gooey and it all just snowballed with the physical pleasure I was feeling, all so blissful and wonderful. Completely under her spell. She did allow me to release, and it was wonderful and intense as ever. I didn’t have much time to recover before I had to get going but I was so positively glowing in that inviting realm of subspace from everything Mistress had done to me. She is incredible.

We continued to chat periodically for about another hour at the start of my shift before work really got going. Chatting about various things and having fun with them after she had played with me was so wonderful…I liken it to aftercare following BDSM play, it helps me so much and I value it just as much as everything else. I hope she knows that. we even chatted a little bit about things we might do when we meet, such as trying mushroom tea. Very excited for that! I didn’t really come back to Discord until after the shift as it was pretty busy, but there were some pleasant chats and activity in the evening…one new user even said that the diary posts on Patreon were part of the reason that he signed up in the first place! What a wonderful compliment that was, I couldn’t quite believe it. Wow! Mistress has also been so supportive about the response the diary entries have received and I am so grateful for it. She really is so supportive and a healer in so many ways…she empowers me and guides me, and I adore it. There were also some pictures from a new photoshoot released today, in which she is wearing a cheerleader outfit. Very excited to see those because the ones that I’ve seen so far have been phenomenal. She is so beautiful!