Diary of a Mind fucked Foot boy Diary Part 28 (Patreon)

29/03/2021

Not too much to say about the earlier part of today other than what a lovely day it has been in terms of chatting with Mistress and the various folks on Discord. There’s always lots of fun and banter, it’s really such a joy, particularly in these more difficult times. The digital medium is no barrier at all to socialising or making friends, far from it. Rather it works as its own special way to bring folks together under the umbrella of a common interest…it’s very special!

Mistress and I chatted about various things including the diary entries and pocket watches and it’s all been great, in particular we had an interesting chat about how the diary might be worth reading for people of similar interests, and if I were to see it on a bookshelf if it was something I would consider picking up etc. thinking about how the me of seven months ago before all this began would react to it was very interesting. The main reaction would be surprised I would have thought. – how far I’ve come and continue to go. Mistress always gives me great food for thought and it’s wonderful. she really is a friend and mentor to me as well as my Mistress and fulfils each role perfectly, so I hope sincerely that my development and growth under her guidance, as well as the way I serve her, make her proud of me and how well I’m doing.

In the evening, there was something unexpected in store. The foot massage video that Mistress had mentioned was shared, but not in the way you might imagine. The video was sent to me by CJ who told me that it was silent, and I had been invited to view it and possibly write a little narration to go with it that Mistress would read. Wow! Not just excited about the video but about that as well. I watched it all the way through first before writing anything – it was so incredibly beautiful. Gorgeous, intimate and sensual. As well as loving Mistress’ feet, it was clear what a wonderful time she was having in it, looking really lovely and blissed out, and I loved seeing that as well. It was all just so lovely…and she was wearing a red outfit in it and so that too had a particularly profound effect on me. She was offline when I watched it, but I messaged her to ask for permission anyway just in case. I had the writing to focus on though, which helped to centre me and give me direction until the orgasmic feelings of being on the edge calmed down a little, although the urge was still there…and I was fully intending to watch the video again to write my narration for it. I did so but was able to marshal the feelings and keep them in check. Am so excited to see what sort of experiments will be done with the video and what the finished result will be! Even if not a single word of what I wrote is used I so thoroughly enjoyed writing it, and I know for sure I will love what comes of it, so that’s wonderful!

30/03/2021

Both Mistress and CJ liked the narration I wrote, which is great! Mistress also took the opportunity to tease me a little about not being able to release after seeing her in red from the video. I think this is only the second time I have not been able to have a release after seeing that – the feelings calmed down so that I could function as they always do, replaced by that powerful urge and need to climax. My knowledge that it definitely wouldn’t be coming tonight I think might have helped me weather it more than normal, but it was certainly still there insistently pushing at me. I had no trouble getting to sleep because of it and when I woke up this morning the feeling had gone just as it did on the previous occasion.

Other than that and a brief chat about how other people with foot fetishes might react to the video, today has been all about work. Been on a long shift and it has been very busy and so I’ve not had time to devote to Discord at all, though I think it has been a very quiet day on there anyway. The long shift and the heat meant I was particularly tired and drained by the time I got home, I didn’t really even look in on the server, which is very unusual for me. Once I got home really all I did was to eat something quickly and go to bed. Tomorrow is also set to be very hot but at least I’m not working!

31/03/2021

There has been more activity on the server today, so it’s been nice reconnecting with the folks and with Mistress. We had fun chatting about various things and generally having a giggle. The topic of having met Mistress in person came up briefly and I was still mired in the mindfuck as much as I had been the other evening when we talked about it. I have the memories, but the conversation we had about it afterwards still makes me question exactly what was factual and what wasn’t, how exactly things went down, if they did at all. It wasn’t until that conversation that I considered the whole thing might have been a mindfuck, and it’s a particularly powerful one because I still get wound up in it completely. It’s certainly a different feeling from knowing something happened but not being able to remember what – having memories of something and questioning the nature of that memory is affecting for sure…and I love it. Mistress has such influence over me now, she can really get inside my head and shape whatever reality for me that she wants. That’s how it is, it happens when she does. Good Lord what a feeling…definitely something the me of seven months back would be surprised and excited by, just like the me of today.

Talk turned to the subject of this very diary and posting it on Patreon. The first entry is February 9th which is almost two months ago…astonishing to think how much time has passed and also how long some of these triggers and suggestions have been with me! We likened it to receiving a gift for Christmas or a birthday, and as time passes you remember the gift but forget what year it was you were given it. Bizarre! It was published and I went across to Patreon to read it, only to find that with this entry Mistress had included a new picture to accompany it. There was picture from a few months back of her holding her foot very close to the camera…while she was wearing a red outfit. The effect of all this washed over me straight away; the effect of seeing her in red, the effect of seeing her beautiful foot so close up. How delightful and beautiful it looked. It added to the feelings of arousal and pleasure, calming me to a state where the feelings took me more strongly almost. I took the time to read the entry before asking Mistress for permission. She asked me why I need to…this may have been a mindfuck or a genuine enquiry, with the mindfucks I can’t tell! Perhaps it was like the other day when she said she had been wondering how long it would take me to see the videos on the cheeky chat channel? I don’t know. Either way it was about twenty minutes or so before she replied, giving me a short countdown and throwing in an erotic trigger just as a final push and rush towards the release of those pleasurable sensations. A powerful release, wonderful orgasm; pleasure and more pleasure flooding me, taking my body and senses in that moment. As it subsided I revelled in the beautiful afterglow and felt more positive and energised as I always do when Mistress toys with me like that.

Chanel x