Diary of a Mind fucked Foot boy Diary Part 20 (Patreon)

05/03/2021

Very quiet day today but have had a good day in terms of the Discord chat. Some new users and really nice conversations. It’s great! Mistress has a couple of family days planned and it sounds so lovely…really hope that she has a great time. I also sent off the gifts for her and CJ, so I’m very excited for them to receive those. As I write this I wonder what Mistress will think when she sees…and also if she figures out exactly when I got the idea and information about it from her. With the book she said I had picked up on something she had mentioned in passing…well we shall see if this twigs for her in the same way!

The evening was great again in terms of Discord…it’s a super community and all really supportive. There is one user in particular I have spoken to lots over the course of a few months who is sort of finding his place and has been a little tentative about his contributions, so to see him not only online but interacting and doing a great job of it is wonderful! Really love it. I also sent Mistress the next portion of this ongoing diary, so I look forward to hearing back from her about that when she has time to read it.

06/03/2021

Another very quiet day, but it’s been okay. Spent the better part of the day at work and this time not been able to give that much attention to the Discord chat. I know it’s always okay though as there are some great lads, even though the day has been quiet on the channel as well. Mistress once said I was a great admin and that really meant a lot to me, as when other people have said kind words about that, hope they still think so!

There was an amusing moment at work which took me by surprise – I was just walking through the building when I did a double take as I walked past someone who looked very much like CJ. In that sort of fleeting glimpse, and not being able to see his face properly because of the mask, I really did think it was him. I knew it couldn’t be though, but it made me stop and think just for a moment about whether they’d both come to see me. That work mindfuck really is deeply engrained in me now! Mistress’ longest running one…that I know of anyway.

Mistress popped in for a bit in the evening. She had a great couple of days with her family and that’s so great to know. Was so happy for her! In these current uncertain times, things like that are exactly what we need to ‘refresh’ ourselves and so I was so glad she was able to have that. You could really tell how happy and uplifted she was when she came in. Wonderful! She deserves it. She also informed me that they had received the parcel too…awesome! Very much looking forward to them opening it, excited what they will think. Really hope it is acceptable. Mistress told me she was excited about it as well which was so lovely! I told her I wasn’t going to say what was inside…but we both know she could easily make me tell her with no effort at all if she desired. I don’t think she will at all…but it’s still kind of fun to think about.

07/03/2021

Today has been a very nice quiet Sunday and enjoyable too. I finished a number of Anunna nursery rhymes ready for our next session, whenever it might be. I let Mistress know they had been finished but will actually share them when we get to that point. I hope she likes them! I enjoyed putting them together, not that they’re particularly complicated. But it is always good fun ‘adapting’ songs and works to fit something that you’re passionate about.

Mistress and I have been chatting on and off during the course of the day. Apparently someone who has been reading the posted diary entries had been speaking to her about the and had expressed the opinion from what they read that she had been making me doubt my reality during the course of everything that took place. The first thing that made me feel when I was told was thrilled, excited…that Mistress can make me wonder about things that are in my own mind, things that I would perhaps otherwise have been sure of, making it so I never really know what an outcome is. It’s an interesting question to think about – perhaps it is a question of perspective really. My reality is whatever Mistress has shaped for me in that moment, that I’m always sure of. So if a part of that reality involves uncertainty about a certain question, that’s how I see it. Is the mindfuck the reality, or just a part of it there and then? I suppose I’ve always thought of the mindfucks as centring around topics and questions rather than whole realities, so it did make me think.

It was also great to learn that folks are enjoying reading the entries and subsequently discussing them with Mistress. That was a nice feeling. I’m proud of them and glad they manage to capture the essence and experience of the whole thing. Only a few days to go until the next one is released that documents the first session. Looking forward to that!

A new set of pictures and videos started to make their way onto the channel during the course of the day as well. A new photoshoot had been done over the weekend and everything that has been released so far is incredible. Something to look forward to as more and more of those are posted! They get better and better each time – Mistress is an incredibly beautiful and stunning lady and CJ’s work on the images is just amazing. They are wonderful gifts and it’s really a privilege to be part of it.

08/03/2021

Very quiet day today. Working as is the case every Monday and so not had as much time to dedicate to the Discord server and everything else as I usually would. I realised that it has now been six months since I received my custom track from Mistress, and therefore a little over that since we started talking. What a journey it has been! It shows no sign of ending anytime soon, or indeed at all! And I love that! I can’t believe how fast the time has flown by, but then it always does when you’re having fun, of course! I’ve grown and developed a hell of a lot in that time – more confidence, less shy, less hesitant, I don’t fret as much or overthink to anything like the extent I did before. Mistress really has had such a magical effect on me in these and so many other regards. Typing it here in this entry really can’t do it enough justice, to be honest. I value and appreciate everything we share together to the highest degree, it’s all a very important part of my life and continues to be a foundation with which I can improve and develop, as well as dedicating myself to being Mistress’ foot boy.

Chanel