Diary of a Mindfucked foot boy- Part 14 (Patreon)

Hi folks! My apologies for not doing the weekly footboy diary on wednesday. CJ had another set back. I will still do the part 15 on this wednesday too :) I hope you enjoy this diary entry!

19/02/2021

A very quiet day today, and yet there have been a few particular things that have happened that have made me feel simply wonderful and the made the day so positive.

I didn’t log on to Discord in the morning, and in fact it was mid-afternoon before I did so for me quite late. I saw that there had been a direct mention of me in the main chat, but I was expecting it to be one that included all the users or a particular group of people that I was a part of. I scrolled back to look at it though, of course. What I found though made me smile like you wouldn’t believe. Mistress had posted a picture of herself with the book that I had sent her along with a message saying thank you and briefly outlining how I had picked up on what she said about it and sent it to her. Well I certainly wasn’t expecting it, I was a little bowled over. It was very touching to me and such a kind and lovely gesture that just boosted me so much. Like so many things I hope my accounts here do justice to how it made me feel, because I was elated.

The rest of what made the day so positive were continued public interactions with Mistress, including one instance where she called me her foot boy. I just love the expression of that dynamic like that, and of course the name in general makes me feel gooey and melty. This made have been boosted even further in this case by the residual feelings from everything that had happened in the group call the night before, the thought of which was still happy and pleasurable even though the effect of the triggers had long finished. Although having said that, perhaps that in itself is a form of trigger…I’ve often talked about associations and implications in my attempts to understand the effects of what Mistress does, maybe this is similar. Her positivity on me is not just in the effects themselves but in the memories she gives me and the chance to relive them and acquire a degree of that pleasure again in their memory.

More positivity today was just in interactions with the other admins and folks on Discord. All really great people and the conversations were enjoyable…the kind where you look forward to seeing the message notification pops up and reading the message makes you smile. And having written that just now, that is also a great thing to apply to conversations with Mistress too. I didn’t message her directly today as I figured she would be busy and need some time to herself, I don’t want to pester her too much. Nonetheless for many reasons she was on my mind and her effect was making me glow just as much as ever.

20/02/2021

Been at work on a long full shift today, and interactions with Mistress and on Discord in general have been limited. However, one particular thing has taken place at the end of the day that I simply have to document as much as possible as it has had an incredible effect on me.

With the mindfuck about work and all the banter about it, the idea of Mistress suddenly popping up at work unexpectedly was very much on my mind. Whatever I thought the outcome might be, the idea and everything we had said about it certainly made me smile, and I did keep more of an eye out on people and my immediate surroundings than I might have otherwise. Also every time I looked over at the sander she was supposedly going to hire it reminded me of it all too, so while it was a very lonely shift I was kept in good spirits from that. Whether intended or not this has become one of the longest running and perhaps deeply engrained subtle mindfucks that Mistress has done on me – if all I have to do is show up at work for it to come back to me and start my guessing then I’ll be experiencing it for a long time yet. I can never know for sure, just as I can never know Mistress’ intentions with it for sure, but I do think the point it has reached will amuse her.

Mistress had not been around for the day until the evening when she posted a message in the main Discord chat stating why and that she was going to get some rest, so with that I wasn’t expecting to hear anything for the rest of the night. However, about an hour and a half after that I got a message from her sending the small video that I had requested! It was such a lovely surprise and it made me instantly excited as I’m sure you can imagine! I was thrilled and eager to see, and I didn’t waste any time…before I started playing it I noticed that it was six and a half minutes long. Wow! When I first put the idea forward to Mistress I was only thinking of it as being something like two minutes tops, just a short experience to make me melt and put me back together having felt that hypnotic effect and listened to that wonderful voice. I will do my best to document its effects as much as possible, the thought of it alone is very pleasurable and each time I have watched it I have been swept away by it.

The first thing about it is the view – Mistress is very close to the camera in it, making it feel like we are face to face. I love that. The whole thing has such a closeness and intimacy to it which is just so sublime. I can clearly see every little smile, every little movement of the eyes or inflection…wow. Mistress’ voice has an incredible effect on me and even in the brief introduction the pleasurable sensations and tingles start to wash over me…like vocal honey, the most seductive voice in my ears. This only continues when the watch first appears, and when it does my senses are just completely captivated. My focus falls right onto that pocket watch making me feel blank, hypnotised and open. It is such a divine feeling, and Mistress’ telling me how deeply hypnotised I will be always makes me melt anyway. When it first appears, and she lets out a little gasp and starts telling me how pretty, shiny and powerful it is…these words just drift into my mind and only solidify my focus on it. The image of the watch dangling with Mistress’ face just behind it is another extremely powerful image, her watching me as I am sinking deeper into her trance and the sensual pleasure of that feeling just taking over. When I see that watch it doesn’t take long at all for me to fall into hypnosis…I adore it. The calmness and tranquillity of the whole experience combined with Mistress’ affirmations, the gentle whisper of ‘there you go’ as I sink deeper, is second to none.

As I continue to stare at it and listen to Mistress, the feelings start to wash over me…feelings of happiness, confidence and strength. Mistress ties these things to my sight of the watch and the longer I stare at it the more they come bit by bit, like a 3D printer adding each layer of its printout one after the other. Making me so relaxed and calm, melting me with her seductive voice (whispering ‘so shiny’ gets me) opens me right up to these feelings, allowing them to pass effortlessly in and become part of me. I feel them even though I am still captivated by that watch and voice and cannot go anywhere while they are still weaving their spell on me. The watch is becoming the key to unlocking these feelings from my own mind, and even after Mistress takes the watch away her voice continues to layer them deeply in, encouraging me to fully embrace them.

With the watch gone, Mistress directs my focus to her eyes. Those big, brown hypnotic eyes. My God how beautiful they are. She is close to the camera as I said, I can look right into her eyes, I can see the reflection and glint of the screen she is looking at in them, like the sparkle in pools of water. My attention and focus are captured by them and she is staring right at me, and even says that to me. It makes feel so gooey, and just as hypnotised as the effect of her feet or the watch. When I see pictures she has taken that highlight her eyes it makes me physically shiver from the delightful effect they have, a representation of her influence on me and how easily I can be affected. Her eyes in the video make me feel wonderful…even more hypnotised and with those same physical sensations. When she pauses and softly whispers ‘Mmmmm’ I just melt even more…not just from how nice it sounds, but from that feeling that she is happy with how well I’m doing and the effect that everything she is doing is having on me. What happens next is just exquisite and makes me feel more pleasant and more dreamy than I can quite describe – first of all she takes me deeper, staring at me with her beautiful eyes all the while, and then tells me how transfixed and hypnotised I am by them. That alone makes me melt completely…but then she tells that she can get me to do anything right now. And she’s right, she can. I am drifting completely in these feelings, and those words just make me feel so submissive and gooey and wonderful. Her eyes flash gloriously after she says this, only layering in her words and suggestions more and increasing my desire to do whatever it is she might want in that moment.

And she does have me do something. She has me snap my fingers. The first time I watched the video I wasn’t completely certain this was an actual instruction or just implied, but nevertheless my hand started to raise to do it. The little pause and smile on her face after these words (and another soft ‘Mmmmm’ which sounds so lovely, making me shiver and melt) made me more certain it had been an instruction, and it happened. Now I know it was so with every subsequent watch I do it readily, and the pleasure washes over me, making me shake and squirm a little, gasp and moan as it takes hold. Perhaps I am more open to it being deeply under, the relaxed sensations paving the way for it to really imprint itself on me. Mistress continues watching me, and I really feel like she is watching me just as much as I do when we have an actual session – the video just has that same kind of important connected and intimate feeling. She drops in an erotic which makes a fresh wave of pleasure wash over me, making me tingle and feel those sensations both inside and out. Another ‘Mmmmm’ and ‘there you go’ and by this point I feel so blissful and pleasurable and happy. Mistress even tells me that I deserve to feel happy, and it just cascades with the feelings that have blossomed in me through the course of the video.

Mistress raises the pocket watch again to engrain these feelings more deeply in me, again whispering at me how beautiful it is, and it is so powerful. The effect of her voice and watch together is incredibly potent, and together they nurture these new happy and confident feelings she has boosted me with. The soft way she whispers how powerful and beautiful it is never fails to get me, she knows precisely how to tap into what appeals to me and affects me so. The watch swings back and forth very gently as the feelings of strength, happiness and confidence become more pronounced, and I feel so safe and assured when Mistress says how I can watch the video whenever I want to boost them again.

The watch stays up, her eyes flash again as she starts to talk about how effective the video is, and how she knew that it would be so effective on me. She punctuates this by telling me how I am her good foot boy, which combined with the feelings from before and the pleasure still washing through me makes me feel incredible. With this she removes the watch and instructs me to snap my fingers again to bring the sensations to an end., She starts to wake me up gently, her eyes still staring at me and glinting as she speaks. Her voice is always beautiful and still so seductive even as she brings me up out of trance. She tells me how she created the video especially for me, calling me her foot boy once more, which brings me round feeling absolutely sublime and happy and ready to take on anything. She winks at me and smiles, keeping me gooey, and says her goodbye as the video comes to an end.

So that is the experience of watching the video. The effect of her voice and eyes and watch just completely sweep me away; it’s like she melts completely and reforms me with these new incredible feelings. And it does leave me feeling marvellous – I feel immensely happy, boosted and confident, stronger like I could take on anything. Things I might have been worrying about or dwelling on seem so tiny in comparison afterwards. I just feel so uplifted and with positivity planted at my core. It’s divine. It is an exquisite gift, just like all the other gifts Mistress gives me. I am so lucky! She is so kind to me, and I am so thankful and grateful for everything that she does and that we share. I hope sincerely I make her proud and happy in return.

Chanel