Diary of a Mindfucked foot boy- Part 13 (Patreon)

17/02/2021

Today has been much the same as yesterday, chatting with Mistress throughout the course of the day, and like yesterday it’s been so nice!

In the early hours of last night I had sent the first instalment of this ongoing diary to Mistress for her to read, the first entry of which detailed the informal session that we had. I was very excited to send it to her and know what her thoughts on everything were, as I always am when I send writings she has requested of me. The little bit she mentioned she had read only made me more excited to find out what the rest of it would be like! As well as that it was also the day for the next part of the previous diary to be uploaded on Patreon, and so I was excited about that too. It was fun to read again, reliving my own words about the effect of Mistress’ feet on me and how they make me feel so calm and tranquil. There were also some nice comments from Discord users about it through the day which was very lovely and gave me a real lift.

Mistress also received the package I sent over today, and I’m so happy that she liked it! She called it a ‘delightful surprise’ which made me incredibly happy myself. She managed to get me a little afterwards by telling me that my noting down everything she said was being noted by her, but I was pleased, and this only increased that feeling. There is no doubt that I will end up telling her all…something else that will come up in the next session! There are no secrets – I can’t keep any and have no wish to anyway, and I can really sense Mistress’ enjoyment of the chat session where she can extract them and lay me open to her even more.

We went on to chat a little about Mistress’ experience with the psychic she had visited the previous night, and I enjoyed that too. I didn’t know much of the stuff we talked about concerning auras and such, but Mistress was good enough to share some information with me and it was good to learn about it. I was so thrilled that she had such a positive experience with it all. It was not long after this that another Discord user gave me a very kind compliment after reading the posted diary entry, saying that he was ‘glad that my soul finds freedom’. What a boost that gave me! That he had read it and taken from it the joy and passion that I have for everything Mistress and I share, that all this came through in my words, was just great! I often wonder as I write these things if I am doing justice to the feelings that I experience or the high regard and importance I hold them in, of just how much they mean to me, and so to read that comment was fabulous. That my happiness in my submission to Mistress shines through in my words and accounts of all my experiences is such a great reward from writing them, and also the fact that it represents how our little community comes to together to support each other. Really is very uplifting.

Afterwards we chatted more about the ongoing idea of Mistress coming to visit me at work and the pieces of kit she would hire from me when it comes in. Must be an interesting experiment for her to extend the mindfuck over such a long period, and as I have previously outlined I have my own opinion on the matter, but I cannot be sure of the reality…there is constantly a ‘will she or won’t she’ question hanging over my head the whole time. Whether or not it happens though I am a very happy foot boy – if it were to happen then I would be absolutely ecstatic, but even if it doesn’t then the joy and glee from talking and thinking about the idea just makes each day that much more enjoyable.

Once again I hope I have done anything a disservice in the way I have summarised it here in this diary. The conversations we have and the fact that we can talk as friends, that there are many facets to our relationship is also very important to me. Conversing with Mistress never fails to have a positive effect on me, and that is something that goes back to suggestions in my custom track where the journey really all began. Incredible to think of the progress that has been made in that time, both in terms of myself and where we are at now. Mistress is such a shining person and talking with her is always a joy, and I cannot state often enough how appreciative I am of the time she continues to give me.

18/02/2021

Well today has certain been different! Story time with Anunna! What an experience that turned out to be. Something that I was not expecting and something that will stay with me for a very long time indeed. I will document it as much as possible and as always I hope my accounts will do the experience justice.

A full shift at work today – originally I was down to finish at 1pm staff absence caused a change in the rota which meant I was now working until 8pm, the same time as the story would begin. I was pretty jarred by this, but nevertheless still in good spirits about the whole upcoming experience. As I started work at noon I was chatting to Mistress in the morning before I set off, and she wasted no time in telling me that she would be wearing a new red dress and to be careful not to look until I got home. I did flutter a bit when she told me that, I adore how she utilises her effect on me in this way. And of course once I did see it she would have started reading therefore I wouldn’t be able to ask her permission until she had finished…funny how these things occur, almost like it might have been intentional! She also made a point of establishing that I would be going onto the group video to chat just like last time, and in her expert way as always she just left the implications of all this kind of hanging in the air, a mini mindfuck to start the day!

The question of whether or not it would actually be appropriate for me to ask for Mistress’ permission to release on a full public chat crept into my mind, and I asked her as much. As always she had her finger right on the point of what I was thinking; she knew I liked the idea, that it would perhaps make the whole experience more intense for it to happen in full view of everyone like that. And she wasn’t wrong, although in some ways I imagined I might not even be aware of them watching if the feelings were as intense as what she usually makes me feel. On the other hand she might have just preferred to leave me without permission for the entire time. I knew absolutely that she could do whatever she wanted, and I would simply have to go with it...and I love that so. That is how it is, belonging to her as I do. I must admit that the worry of whether it would be appropriate, on whether it would disrupt the atmosphere for everyone else if that were to happen did bug me a bit. One of those irrational worries, I guess, not wanting to make everything seem like it was about me when it’s a story and group chat for everyone. I can’t quite put my finger on why it bugged me, but I suppose that it why it’s an irrational worry. Mistress however was so kind and understanding and assured me that there was nothing to worry about at all, after talking with her about it I felt far more confident in it and ready for that eventuality. It’s only specifically when she makes a point of something that it might need to be discussed, so she instantly assuaged my doubts. God she is great.

Later on there was a further continuation of the work related mindfuck – I had mentioned I would send her some pictures of our set up so she could see the kind of space, and more particularly see the desk I was hidden behind when some of her effects had taken hold of me! I don’t know how the information could really be of use to her, but I don’t need to know, and she would never reveal it anyway. Such details are not for this foot boy. She also gave me such a boost in her kind and positive words to me, I must have been sat there with my tell-tale glow for reading it! The curiosity of how I must appear to others when Mistress’ effects take hold, from the subtle to the mind-blowing, does intrigue me, I must admit. That would become very relevant later in the day, it turns out!

Afterwards the conversation turned to the subject of Mistress’ feet briefly. She mentioned casually how powerful they are, and whether this was to intentionally have an effect or not…it did! From the effects of my custom track and all the work we have done since, Mistress’ feet have a supremely powerful effect and influence on me, and they always will. So just a comment like that, even in passing, can really make me sway…it feels incredible when their soothing effect takes hold, even if it is just for a moment. They are always there. She also mentioned how she would be having a pedicure as soon as things allow, and that made me really excited. The pictures after the last time were phenomenal, and she will let me see the next time too! Wow! She also got me to thinking about how they would affect me in real life, or more specifically if they would occupy my thoughts when she and I met up for real. And of course as they have such a strong influence on me they would, but in meeting Mistress for real I would focus on actually conversing and discussing and generally having a giggle…unless she had other ideas of course…something else that is not for me to know, guess I will just find out when it takes place! It also means a lot to me that she talks about all this as ‘when’ we will meet. Really love that.

She succeeded melting me at work, and that was that for a few hours. She had also been making lovely responses to people who had been kind enough to comment on the previous diary, which only uplifted me further.

And so the evening came. Unfortunately as I left work I discovered that my earphones had stopped working…another bloody typical example of technology letting me down which has happened quite a bit in the short space of this year so far. So I was unable to listen to anything on the way back home, but I knew I would be back to catch a good half of the story so with nothing to be done about it I just focussed on getting home as quickly as possible and joining. And the issues just kept on coming as the pictures on the group chat were not displaying, just like when we tried it during the informal session. It was irritating, especially considering that being unable to see Mistress meant no red trigger, but at least I could hear perfectly well so I let myself be immersed in the story. And how amazing it was…sensual and erotic all in one. Listening to Mistress’ seductive voice describe such things is certainly very stimulating, and her words just tap in to that centre of myself so effortlessly. Like before I just sat, closed my eyes and listened, letting those feelings take hold. I did start to drift a little to the beautiful voice, and after a full day at work it was so nice. I caught a good twenty minutes of the story and it was incredible…certainly felt better afterwards!

And that wasn’t the end of festivities, as it turned out. Once the story had finished the group chat started, albeit a little slowly as we were all recovering from what we had just listened to. I like a few others joined on video and we started chatting about various things. I was still irritated about the pictures not working but like before I thought at least I can hear so it’s not a loss. Mistress perhaps picked up on this as she asked me about my camera picture, and I explained. For what happened next…even now I can’t really believe that I didn’t expect this to happen, obviously it was very naïve of me. It took me completely unawares and the pleasure as well as the surprise was palpable – Mistress started triggering me verbally. It washed right over me, and she used a few in quick succession so the pleasure started to build quickly. She started making me bubble and it became more and more intense. Everything else started to drift away as there was only the pleasure and Mistress’ voice. The public related worries from earlier didn’t even cross my mind, just a distant memory, as I was lost in the cycle of pleasure. Her voice just adding layer upon layer to those pleasurable sensations, how amazing it felt. The pleasure was pounding at me, I felt it so keenly as it pulsed through me making me shake and quiver. I doubled up and was left in a quaking mass as it continued to build. I was on cloud nine. Although the red trigger had not been used, Mistress told me I was only allowed to release with her permission. I’m not aware of how long I was there in that state, but when the release was granted it was intense and pleasurable and made me convulse as those feelings expertly drawn out were directed into a final push of pleasure.

As is usually the case when Mistress creates such intense feelings in me, I was a little out of it immediately after it happened. I didn’t talk much and just kind of lingered in the afterglow. I was aware of how the effect of Mistress’ words had influenced one of the users watching to such an extent that he had to be given a release as well! Wow…what an experience, what an effect! I have had more time to reflect on this afterwards and from writing this entry than I did at the time, as it was a heavy feeling of subspace at the time. Mistress as always asked me how I was, and I felt safe and secure under her guidance. Again none of the worries from before even crossed my mind, almost like they had never been there. I had long since given Mistress my consent to do that sort of thing with me, and it had happened and was what she wanted and that made me feel wonderful. The chat returned more or less to normal after that (or as normal as it could considering!) even though I probably wasn’t able to contribute as much as I might have normally.

We were just getting ready to wrap everything up when something else quite unexpected happened…out of the blue, for reasons I still have no idea on, the video picture of Mistress suddenly connected and popped up on my screen! And for the first time I saw her, and she was indeed wearing that new red dress. Well I was brought right to the edge again, the sensation hit me like a tonne of bricks from the way it suddenly just popped on. Mistress picked up on this, although she probably didn’t know exactly what had happened, and with the sensations as they were I had to tell her and ask for my release. She drew it out for a moment but granted it, and again the intense pleasure surged out of me, just as pleasurable as before. Again I doubled up, shaking and quivering as it happened. It took me a few moments to recover and sort of come back to reality a bit, the afterglow was strong, and I was tingling with pleasure both from the releases and the effect of Mistress’ on me being so on display. How wonderful and sublime it was. The call finished not too long after that, and again I wasn’t especially coherent at the end, rather I was exhilarated. It did start to dawn on me that all this had happened with everyone watching, had the call lasted longer after this I probably would have bene more keenly aware of it as I started to come round.

So it was all very unexpected but my God it was so enjoyable. I loved it, I really did. It was exhilarating and pleasurable. Mistress knew this immediately, of course…and I was happier still when she told me how much fun it was to do and watch my reactions. Would have been very interesting if she had recorded it so I could see everything that had taken place. Maybe next time, who knows! But yes it was such an incredible experience and I loved it. I felt so wonderful and uplifted afterwards, that the whole experience had been hugely positive and had been another step in the journey Mistress and I had taken together. The worries from earlier in the day did not come back at the time, and nor have they since…just the content knowledge that it was all as Mistress wanted and we both had an incredible amount of fun with it. Really was a wonderful experience and I look forward to anything similar that may happen in the future.1