Diary of my Footboy #Mindfucked- part 10 (Patreon)

Hi everyone... the next installment of the diary is here for your reading enjoyment....

11/02/2021

Today has been quieter than the last couple of days but there have still been a number of significant things that have happened that I would like to document.

Although I started chatting with Mistress in the morning as I often do, the first was actually sparked by a brief conversation that I had with another user on Discord. This person had only recently joined and so as well as conversations along the lines of checking they were settling in alright and such, part of it was talking about Mistress, the extremely positive qualities of her work and her genuine wish to do the best for people and dedication to that outcome. So that progressed as any other conversation would, then this person described me as a ‘great talker’, even a ‘raconteur’. This had a similar effect on me to when a different user had described me as having a great presence on camera while I was participating in a video chat with everyone. Lovely compliments to be given, and they really made me stop and think about myself and the changes that have taken place during the course of mine and Mistress’ journey together.

I hope that my mentioning of these things does not come across as self-serving or even arrogant, it’s just something particularly significant for me and it is important to get it down here and process. It makes me look at how far I’ve come along in myself and the developments that have taken place. It definitely has to be said that I am a more confident individual now, and less shy than I was even just a few months ago. These things might not seem particularly important being written down in this format, but they are to me. To look at myself and know that I’m strong enough to deal with a particular kind of situation now, or that it won’t knock me out of the loop as much as it may have done in the past, is incredible. As Mistress and I have progressed and developed together I have had something to dedicate myself to and to strive for, to be the best version of myself both for me and for Mistress. We have worked on these particular aspects of myself and as time has passed I have noticed the differences as particular situations crop up.

And that’s the interesting thing about it really…it’s as certain things crop up or particular things happen. When I specifically think about these things I can see the progress that has been made, but until then it isn’t something that I’m constantly dwelling on. That’s why it was such a lovely surprise to be told I’m a great talker – it’s not until this kind of thing has been pointed out that I really process and compare with how I might have been in the past. I feel that I am less hesitant, more willing to contribute, more self-assured and not as shy. It was a really lovely thing to hear and highlighted how far I have come with Mistress and continue to do so. She then told me that she was not only glad that I was happy but that I really deserved to be, and I was so touched by that. Mistress is a really wonderful and sublime person and her words hypnotic or otherwise never fail to make me glow.

After talking about all this with Mistress we started to reflect a little on how this is all from me being completely under her feet, and how very easily she can take me under with them now. She called me her foot boy as well, of course…and this put me in the mood to go and look at her feet. She instructed me to go and enjoy fully, to completely immerse myself in the moment. Before she said this I was just going to look at some pictures, but with that I decided to also listen to the short track she recorded for me a while back which has her hypnotic voice building on the kind of suggestions she lays down in my custom track, as well as whispering how I’m her foot boy. I didn’t end up looking at the pictures for very long as I just closed my eyes and let Mistress’ voice carry me away, drifting as I listened and took in the delightful words, floating in the effect of her feet and voice as they made me feel so safe and secure. The scent filled me and took me over, I felt so much like her good foot boy. It was a wonderful experience and must have taken around half an hour before I went back to tell Mistress how it felt…melty and gooey were certainly very appropriate words! The sensuality of hypnosis, particularly when Mistress uses her feet, is just something I absolutely adore. I thrive and sensuality and connection and these things just appeal to that so much…a feeling like nothing else.

We continued to talk periodically through the day until Mistress signed off and it was lovely as ever. Then in the evening Mistress sent me something which took me completely by surprise…I had to take several moments to really process and absorb them when I saw. She sent me the pictures of her feet and the pocket watch together…my God they were incredible. I had asked her about them not long after the previous sessions and so they were kind of in the pipeline, but I wasn’t expecting them. They were every bit as beautiful, hypnotic and captivating as I remembered from the sessions and had been envisioning in my mind. Even as I write this now thinking about them is incredibly potent. Mistress’ feet have been a powerful way to hypnotise me for a long time now, and the watch is very quickly following suit. Seeing them together gave me such a wonderful feeling, my attention and focus were drawn to them and I really let myself drift in the moment, going under Mistress’ beautiful spell. I really can’t express how sublime and exquisite they are and how amazing, and precious, they are to me. Just like Mistress herself really. A treasured gift.

The night wasn’t over with yet though. The cheeky chat channel ended up having rather a few pictures of Mistress in red posted on it, which of course affected me profoundly…how incredible and gorgeous she looked. As soon as I saw the first one I was brought right to edge of orgasm, the pleasure and the need hitting me straight away. I cannot release without Mistress’ permission while in this state. She wasn’t even online when it happened, but I asked anyway as part of the effect makes me feel the need to ask for it as well as needing it to climax. As it turned out I was extremely lucky, she was still awake and replied about fifteen minutes after I had seen the first picture. The physical reactions and effects of the trigger had started to subside a bit, so that I could function, but there remained that pressed need to release. Mistress took the opportunity to play with me a bit, telling me how I should be careful looking at pictures at night, before starting to count me down to my release. The urgency and aching need for it was strong again, I squirmed as I watched each number appear. I replied to each number with a little something just to acknowledge that I had seen it, and Mistress still drew it out as long as she could to toy with me, even going back up in numbers! This was especially pronounced after 1 as she waited almost ten minutes before responding again – the pleasure was intense and pulsing through me. That point where the pleasure is at its apex and you feel it is about to explode, but not having that option and instead it is constant and drawn out second by second…how incredible it feels. When she did reply Mistress asked if I had already released, and it took a bit of effort to manage to type back how I was still waiting as she hadn’t yet said I could…and then she did.

The orgasm was pleasurable and intense, the feelings that had been pounding at me and prolonged beautifully finally releasing in a wonderful rush. The experiences that Mistress gives me are always sublime…breath-taking! As well as the intense physical pleasure it’s what these things represent as well – the progress we have made together and where we’re at, a place in which she can so easily create such effects in me, that they are a fact of me…I love it. She is so good to me in so many ways and I really hope that I make her proud.

12/02/2021

Another terrific and pleasurable day – as it turns out the red picture induced orgasm at the end of yesterday ended up setting a bit of a direction for how today would go…

After waking up I got ready as normal, I needed to pop out, so I didn’t look at the Discord server as early as I sometimes do. When I looked at my phone I saw that there had been a lot of posts in the cheeky chat channel. Normally I would look straight away but as I needed to go out and I wasn’t sure how much Mistress would be around I decided not to…if there were any red pictures there would be plenty of time to properly enjoy them once I got back. I chatted with Mistress very briefly, and she said pretty much the same thing. We had a giggle together about making sure that she would be awake when I got back, and that was that.

The first thing I saw on the channel when I did start looking was a short video of Mistress…and she was wearing her new red dress. The effect as always was instantaneous, the aching need and pulsing pleasure came to me, and I really needed to release. Mistress looked so enchanting in the video – her hair, her body in the dress, the wink and smile, all just so beautiful. I contacted her to ask for permission to release and she allowed it at 14.40, so I only had to wait three minutes from then. As always it was a marvellous feeling, a powerful release of the pleasure that has been coursing through me. It wasn’t all that much longer before another red picture was posted on the channel, and I saw it and the feelings came back to me again! Mmmmm wow. Mistress gave me her permission instantly and I experienced another beautiful release. When I see Mistress’ message of permission it is like that final push that drives you to climax during intimate moments, the last and most powerful thrust or surge that takes me over the edge and floods me with pleasure. Until I see that message I am held in that state for as long as Mistress wants. Once I have been allowed my release there is a time when I can observe the picture that caused it before the effect takes hold again, similar to how when Mistress has flooded me with pleasure via other means, a release brings them to a conclusion. In this time I have to be quick leaving any comments on the channel if that’s what I’m going to do! Since this red outfit trigger has been implanted the majority of images that have induced it have all been new. I love the effect it has, not just because of the physical pleasure but the marvellous things it represents.

As well as the wonderful physical pleasure I so enjoy being in the palm of her hand like that. I hope I can do justice to all these experiences as I relate them here. After that release she dropped a casual hint that there was much more footage of the red dress to come and that I should keep my energy up, and that only increased those feelings. We carried on chatting through the course of the afternoon, talking about a couple of different things including BDSM, and it was so nice. Chatting with Mistress is any manner is just so lovely, and she always manages to put her finger on things that will have a pronounced effect. She knows me inside and out at this point, and I love it.

In the early evening, a second video of Mistress in her red dress appeared in the cheeky chat channel, and it was just as beautiful and sensual as the first. The glow and happiness of the previous orgasms was still with me and was joined by the familiar urge and need to release, to get in touch with Mistress and ask her permission. Only this time, she didn’t give it straight away…When I contacted her, her first response was ‘perhaps’. With that I felt that this time she was going to draw it out, make that pleasure last and really imprint on me. After making me tell her how intensely I needed to release (feeling like I would explode) she started another countdown. It played out much the same as the previous time, with Mistress drawing it out deliciously, going back up in numbers, repeating them, making me wait and experience that pleasure for as long as possible. The countdown does not increase the intensity of the pleasure, the red trigger brings me right to the edge straight away with no in-between, but it allows Mistress to play with me and make me wait for my release…and as it turned out she had thought of another way to do that this time. After the count of 1, I was expecting the message to release to appear, geared for those feelings, but instead she simply responded with the letter R. Like the numbers it had no effect on the actual intensity of the feelings, but the expectation of the release coming only for it to be prolonged further just made me quiver…somehow made me feel it more keenly. The letters of the word ’release’ were sent one after the other, the dynamics of the situation the same as counting down with the numbers.

Being triggered brought me to the edge of orgasm, where the pleasure has built to its highest point and you think it's going to climax and release, except without Mistress’ permission that can't happen. As she replied to me pretty quickly the feelings were still at their height, so the countdown did not increase the pleasure as such as it was already powerful. Each number, each small reply I gave and each second she prolonged it for just made the feelings grip me more, making me squirm. After 1, thinking it would come but knowing she was playing with me still further, I loved it. Each moment knowing only the need to release for Mistress until she finally completed the word of your permission and I was able to release, shaking and convulsing with it.

Chanel