Diary of my Footboy #Mindfucked- Part 4 (Patreon)

Hello everyone! So the next 2 days from the dairy is the weekend lead up to the back-to-back hypnosis sessions.... Let's see what mind fucks happened over the weekend....

Day Six – Saturday

Now that we’re at the weekend the sessions seem closer than ever. Can’t say how much I’m looking forward to them, what a wonderful experience they’re going to be…and I don’t even know what’s coming! Thinking about them a lot both in a general way moving towards the event and with the specifics of wondering exactly what is going to happen and whether everything that has happened over the last few days is Mistress’ sort of trial run for how it will be over the twenty-four hours, or beyond.

She caught me with another mindfuck today, it was sort of a different kind to the others that she’s done on me before. After a comment I made about myself being cheeky she asked me if I thought that was wise with the two sessions coming, which did make me stop and think. I considered my response and corrected myself on it, and of course she immediately responded by telling me that the mindfuck was starting. So I didn’t see it coming, obviously! That is the point though, I’m sure. So it made me think after Mistress had said that…was I just really open to that particular one there and then, with the kind of tease that it was? I think I must have been. But of course I must be really open to all of them now, as I’ve talked about. It must be very little effort for Mistress to start stirring those waters now as she has her finger very much on how I am and will react.

It’s very interesting to consider how well she can read me now, make me so open to her, when we interact through a textual medium. Of course with everything we have done up to this point the medium we communicate through hardly matters as we have a strong connection, but the reason I think about this because of how I wasn’t able to pick up on the teasing and mindfuck when she started it. But again, it no doubt all ties in with how easily she can influence me and not the medium. Either way it makes me feel really good and gooey inside, much like our brief interaction in the foot channel today – the way she uses that ellipsis and just lets her words hang is very…affecting.

And so not long after that I took my usual walk and had all these questions and thoughts floating around me. She called me her foot boy again as well just before I went, and that’s really powerful. She calls me that a lot now and each time is just a small wave of pleasure, a reminder of who and what I am. As with the mindfucks I’ve really learned how subtle some of the things that Mistress does can be, but it doesn’t make them any less powerful or amazing to experience. When Mistress uses these triggers and creates these sensations it’s a part of who I am in that moment, subject to whatever feeling she is creating. How wonderful it feels to be in that position, and to belong to her like that.

And all she needs to do it are just a few words, or even just one! When she uses words to get me to react in a particular way, like to sway or go deep, I feel it. Mistress really understands how the subconscious works, and how I work. When she instructs these things it brings back the associated feelings of every time that it’s happened before, and I open myself up to it and let it wash over me. I keep thinking about how open I am to her, and how much more so I will be after the sessions and when she reads this diary…she will have a lot of knowledge about and over me, and I am a very happy foot boy thinking about that.

Day Seven – Sunday

Well there’s only one more sleep to go! In fact at the time of writing this entry less than twenty-four hours to go! So by this time tomorrow evening we will have had the first session and I’ll be…well I don’t know! Who knows what sort of state I’ll be in when writing tomorrow’s entry. All I know is that it will be the best state, and the state that Mistress has chosen for me, and that is so wonderful.

Today has been very quiet. With the sessions so near now I haven’t thought about the exact content as much as other days, more just excitement that they are so near. Thinking about it as I write this, these things will no doubt come back into my mind tomorrow as we get closer to 7pm. Will Mistress hypnotize me using her feet, her eyes? Both are entrancing along with her voice, of course. When I look at a picture of either of them it really is like an involuntary response, a profound effect that takes hold.

So nothing particularly new to add today other than how my excitement for the sessions is building and building. Mistress looked absolutely stunning in all the pictures on Cheeky Chat this evening – they had such a magical quality to them and just exuded grace and beauty. And the video of her in the bath was incredible; the way her eyes lit up, the cheeky smile with tongue between her teeth…all of it. I had to take a moment to get into something more comfortable and start to…relax when I saw them! It was enjoyable when Mistress asked after me when I had been quiet during this.

Perhaps as I’ve wondered before the effect these pictures have on me now will play into how Mistress will make me feel in the future. Associated feelings from my subconscious and memories? Like when I look at a picture of her feet, her face smiling like she’s reaching out to use them on me…

I finish this entry really excited for whatever tomorrow might bring. When I write again something about me will be different…sooo looking forward to it.

I will post the next entry next Wednesday, you must let me know if you would like the 2 days for the 2 back to back sessions in one post or a week apart? 

Hope you enjoyed it!

Chanel x