Selfportraits (Patreon)

1. I found a place where I could finally meditate. For these almost 6 months, I couldn't relax at all... and finally, an almost deserted place, a big stone blowing coolness, trees with a fancy bark and the singing of patsoks. I meditated for about 10 minutes and felt such relaxation that I had not felt for a long time. Now I go there every morning on my weekends.

2. I still decided to return to Kyiv. Fuck women's mobilization. If the state considers me useful in the army, then why not.

3. I conducted my first NFT auction - successfully. I was encouraged and supported by many people - everyone except my parents. I don't know what should happen for me to believe in myself and my work and not take my parents' opinion to heart. The exhibition in Paris - did not work.... The first sold prints - did not work.... NFT - did not work - Nothing changes the parents' opinion, they are just waiting for me to get bored and I will finally start shooting something "normal", and it is better to leave altogether photographs. And the most unfortunate thing is that their disbelief in me is projected onto me. I still doubt what I'm doing. I continue because I like it, but everything I get from it seems to me that I do not deserve.

It gets even uglier when strangers start offering obscenities, because I'm the kind of person who shoots naked when they think I'm an escort, or they want to buy me for money... And people draw conclusions just from photos. DISGUSTING....The question arises, maybe I'm really just filming stupid erotica?