The Hardest Thing To Write (Patreon)

Sometimes it’s easy to write a text message to a friend and sometimes it’s incredibly difficult. I feel like most of these letters start with an apology but I won’t apologise for my absence as it all has a reasoning behind it that you’ll figure out when you continue reading. Most of you know and remember me from my world mods for The Sims 4. I’ve always wanted to expand the fourth iteration beyond what’s possible, more than EA’s American Suburban Simulator environments. As someone who’s grown up with three different languages and cultures I’ve always loved mixing and blending cultures myself as I think that creates the most unique moments in life.

As the years went by and thanks to the incredible support from everybody who supported me here on Patreon, on YouTube or on any other platform, I really am grateful for the amazing opportunities you’ve enabled me and the financial struggles I was able to overcome. For the past two years however my passion for The Sims 4 has fallen off drastically. On one side I’d totally blame the shallow packs that we’ve received over the past years with little-to-no new worlds. Everything just looks and feels the same, the gameplay is repetitive and recycled. On the other side there have been a lot of things that affected my mental health in a very damaging way.

(Trigger Warning: Suicidal Thoughts)

If you follow me on Twitter you might as well have seen that I’ve recently picked up university again and I’ve moved into my very first own apartment. With all the great things and adventures there’s also been a lot of financial struggles coming alongside. As someone who has been struggling with depression throughout my entire life and having financial issues as one of the major impacting factors I recently hit rock bottom. Not only that I really spiralled and went into even darker places. The past weekend I hit my lowest point where I just didn’t feel anything, I felt empty and I didn’t want to exist anymore. That initial thought scared me immediately and I’ve decided to take action on it and work on finding therapy and getting my brain back in a place where I can be the joyful version that I really loved.

With that decision there’s even harder decisions to make. One of it is that I won’t be working on any new Sims-related mods for the foreseeable future. That being said it’s a tough decision because the additional income through Patreon always really helps me out every single month. That being said I’ll keep this page running and it’s up to you whether you want to support me or not, I’m still grateful for every single human being out there willing to spend their hard-earned money on my work. It really means a lot.

With all of that said and done, there’s always ways of helping people around. Make sure that you take well care of your loved ones and support those in need. I won’t beg for donations but any financial support is greatly appreciated and I thank you all for reading through this.

Thank you all. I love you all.

Nando