I am sorry but this is a rant because I am sad :( (Patreon)

Today is Sunday and it's supposed to be my "rest day" but I had to come here and talk to you about something that's bothering me. I have been getting a few messages in private here on Patreon about the poll for the new kdrama that's been going on for 2 days now. 

Some are messages that I am already used to get, like suggestions to new dramas or old ones, suggestions as to how I should do certain things that would be better for me and my growth and that is completely fine because they even help me grow overtime and see whatever mistakes I might be making. I love these types of messages, keep them coming! 

But there has been some that are not really nice. They contain mostly:

• My list for the next drama is not good enough and I should quit
• They won't be my patrons anymore because I don't pick the good dramas to watch
• I am favoring some people over others and picking only the dramas they suggest
• My page is nothing like they thought it would be so they want the money back
• I talk too much in my reactions and should stop doing it so often

While I completely understand that you are spending your money to watch my content, I also have to remind you that I am human and I cannot do EVERYTHING each person wants. I have a job out of the internet and I do NOT have the time to watch every single drama you think I should! You are also not the only one paying to watch the content, which means I cannot favor you over others, unfortunately that's now how it works in THIS GANG! 

I take everyone's suggestions into consideration and then, I put the poll for the next drama up. 

The poll is here to make sure it's fair and square for everyone. I would never, ever favor someone over others, because to me you are all equally my friends/gangsters.

I am deeply sorry that the drama you suggested is not winning the poll, or it's not in the poll at all, but I am doing my best to keep this gang happy and content. I do not want, and have never wanted, to scam anyone into thinking my Patreon is awesome and perfect and make false advertisement over whatever happens here. 

I organized everything in the page so that you would know EXACTLY what you are paying to watch! There are several posts with everything explained and if you just took the time to read before pledging, you wouldn't have to tell me "my page is not everything you thought it would be" or that "my content is not worth your money".

I won't offer these people a refund because I specified what is the content available very clearly in the pledge's description and several posts. I even described the dramas that are NOT AVAILABLE anymore, and which ones ARE AVAILABLE and UNTIL WHEN they would be available. I don't know what else I could do to appease everyone that's new, and that's just eating up my emotional state. 

I am not doing this for the money, I do this to feel good and happy. Please stop with the mean messages in private. If you are not happy, just don't pledge anymore, no one is forcing you to do that. 

Understand that this is only for those sending me MEAN MESSAGES! 

To everyone who sends me messages making suggestions and recommendations, I love them, and this is not directed towards you ok? 

Someone also sent me a message suggesting I make a post about all the dramas I have already watched to make it easier for you to suggest next kdrama reactions, and I also thought that is a great idea. I will do that as soon as possible, so thank you for the suggestion :)

I am so sorry about this long rant, but you know I am really transparent with you and this is something that's giving me extreme anxiety and I hate this feeling of insecurity, like I am never doing enough. Thank you to everyone who truly supports me and is always there for me <3 I love you to the moon and back.

Now for the haters sending mean messages, PLEASE STOP PLEDGING AND GO AWAY!