being a little vulnerable with my CAPTAINs+CREWs. (Patreon)

sup y’all, I hope everyone’s August has been starting off well. I was going to “get vulnerable” in my community section on YouTube but I decided to do it here instead with y’all here.

I’ve been feeling super off mentally and emotionally ever since this month started, to be honest. I usually have videos filmed by Wednesday but I just wasn’t feeling it. Then of course, I get hit with this. After I hit 50k on YouTube, the first emotion I felt was fear. I know that the bigger my channel gets, the more comments of this sort will come with my growth. I know I should ignore those and I freakin’ KNOW better than to let this even bother me, but when I already started my week off weakened, this will do the trick of adding onto my weakness.

But I know that the amount of y’all who are genuine and decent people who support me completely outnumbers those kind of comments, so no worries— I’m not quitting or anything. I just need to get a hold of myself mentally before everything else continues to crash.

Might be a slow week on YouTube for me this week but I’ll have Patreon content coming for y’all because y’all recommended some goooood stuff when I had my last request thread up.😍👍🏼 Again, y’all may think your $1/$3 membership isn’t much, but y’all literally help me get my meds that I need to survive and yalls’ support and words of motivation helps me stop my tears of fear and frustration. I love y’all.

💜

xthina