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Sorry for the lack of content this month, and sorry that may continue. I try not to get too personal o n l i n e these days, but I am comfortable enough here to get into it.

I've finally reached a breaking point with my mental health where I need professional help. I have been debilitated by what I believe to be OCD. I have been spiraling deeper into chaos all year, and have finally reached a state of complete dysfunction. I am unable to draw, work, or do anything at all. I've just been completely overwhelmed by torment, fear, anxiety, and depression. I've been fighting mental issues my entire life and its finally too much for me. I need a professional. I need medication. I need something that is going to make this easier to deal with, because I absolutely can't live like this anymore.

I have an appointment with an OCD specialist/therapist this week, gonna try and find a psych as well. 

I keep pulling out my sketchbook to try and doodle but so far nothing has happened. Hopefully I'll have at least something little to share soon.

Thank you all for your continued support.

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Proteus

*virtual hugs, if wanted*

Anonymous

Take your time, and take care 👍👍

Jam Gram

I send love and support !!!! I have a lot of people (including myself) in my life with OCD and its not spoken about enough how tough and also different for everyone in how it manifests, I'm rlly happy for you that you're getting specific help and taking care of urself for it , I wish you all the best in ur process w it!!!! you can absolutely do it !!

Tumult

Thank you ;n; I'm so sorry you deal with it too. It is absolutely the scariest and most isolating thing I have ever dealt with. It's so frustrating that it's so often depicted as "teehee I'm so quirky and organized". Mine's taken a lot of different forms over 2020 but finally manifested as something that's not only terrifying, but heartbreaking. Thank you again, I really appreciate the encouragement because right now it just feels impossible/hopeless.

Possumbreath

I'm glad you were able to get yourself an appointment and that hopefully help is on the way! I'm sorry things have been so rough for you and I hope moving forward you're able to heal and find your footing again. Don't worry about producing content unless YOU want to; the most important thing right now is focusing on your health. We'll still be here.

Raiyk

Never a need to apologize for such man, health and well being always comes first, ofc &lt;3 Mega hope you find some good help, and your struggles can subside &lt;33 gutting to hear youre going through so much :'c Take care, budd &lt;3

Tumult

Thank you so much!! I know people are paying to follow me here so I feel bad not posting anything, but thank you for being so understanding! &lt;3