I took a break because I didn't believe myself. (Patreon)

I took a break because I didn't believe myself. I realized that I was afraid of myself, afraid to show how I felt, afraid to tell what really happened. The fear of appearing depraved or ignoble, disrespecting myself. The fear of opening up in a wrong way, because there is no way back.

Well, studying the biography of artists, I have nothing to worry about except that when I die technology will be so developed that my entire chronology could be raised not only by asking my children, but simply by getting into my information base. Starting from flights and finishing with a pose I loved most in photos.

I wrote for you and at the same time realized that I was hiding some things, that I was not telling you something, telling you, but retouching, because there is a pressure is from the world, because there is some kind of representation of the norm. There are inner voices, inner figures with changing faces, and who and what will say about what I am writing here)

I remember as a child, when I was in kindergarten, one day I fainted. While I was passed out i saw the faces surrounding me above my head talking to me ... Why did you climb on the swing? What will the parents say? Jesus, has this company been with me since such an early age? Such an image of circling heads was taken by me from some movie, then, fainting, as a child, I also understood all this, but it's amazing that my brain understood everything even then, too, it already knew that I wasn't alone inside, there are different figures there.

In fact, now I'm having a hell of a time with these figures, I started making music and I share it on my instagram. And I have to listen to a lot of my fears, feel this smell of uncertainty. Flocks of birds whisper, one phrase breaks off from another, but the tone of what is happening is clear!

Figures, faces, voices, changing to the rhythm of my thinking, and I keep repeating to them, like a prayer in childhood before going to bed when I was scared. I tell them: I am creating my own unique form for the release of my creativity. I have my own way. Nobody taught me. I do as I feel!

Fucking judges, I'll burn you all out of my head, and if necessary, out of my heart too!

And even now I am writing and I feeling that when I start telling my story, it jumps out of me like a wild horse that wants to jump somewhere and be itself, despite these norms, these horses that are being trained for racing. My movements are wild and nervous, but real. I want to write the truth!

Remembering now my shooting and traveling, I am grateful to all the accidents and my inner zeal for something. I am happy that I gave myself such an experience, now it has transformed completely into online.

Everyone loves to watch movies, I create my own movies. A Russian girl has never been abroad in the era of social networks. She flies to France for the first time to walk, take pictures naked and just dream.

I admire my action so much, it's sweet and romantic, I remember these pink nikes, pink petals on the asphalt from cherry blossom. And a 100 euros black jacket , with Jean-Michel Basquiat written on the back)))))

I want girls who take naked photos to feel free and confident, to feel fashionable and able to change the world, to feel that this is neither the beginning nor the end for their creativity, that this is a part of themselves, part of their way, that this is a fatal break.

This is a true freedom of expression. This is neither bad nor good, it's just an era that expresses itself through people) An era is not good or bad, it's just time that flows, and people are windows that help fill up with this time. We are all part of some segment, so the girls who are photographed naked are not outside of this segment, it is some kind of new creative energy that has separated and become its own. I mean, earlier, a girl needed an artist, someone who would control her body, who would tell her when to undress and pose. Now it's an independent story.

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